𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙘𝙖𝙧 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙫𝙤𝙨 .

64' . ✨

$ ' Jaide's Pov .

several weeks passed by and i still continued to ignore kaash .

and day by day it was killing me but that day when she kissed me ... it just gave me feelings that your not supposed to feel towards your bestfriend .

i had to cut her off before i fell in too deep .

but being that i had to end the friendship , it's been more lonelier than ever . im constantly by myself in everything that i do and everywhere i go .

sometimes i believe cutting off Kaash was a bad idea from jump , but i didn't want me and kaash to end  up anything more than friends . how would that look to the world ? to my family ? to the people i call my friends ?

call me weak or whatever but i don't think i could handle that type of negativity and hatred from other people . i already get enough of it as it is just for being a lesbian stud .

so coming out to the world as stud for stud !? nah bro . just imagine .

i just .... i don't know bro .

i am currently sitting at a bar drinking away all my emotions and thoughts . it's just me and a couple other people sitting at the bar . it seems like a slow night .

slow jazz music played in the background . it was the most calmest sound to me besides the ocean .

i swayed to the music just thinking about my life and the situation that went down between me & kaash weeks ago . yes , it still haunted me because i have feelings and that's the only reason why i have to keep her away .

a tear fell from my left eye and onto my cheek . i quickly wiped it before anyone could see .

i sighed and shook my head while staring at the shot glass that my alcohol was just in . it's clear that im obviously stressed over this whole situation .

$ ' Kaash's Pov .

my mind hasn't been in a good space ever since jaide has been ignoring me .

how the fuck could i do some shit like that . like i said over and over again , i really don't know what the fuck has gotten into me .

now jaide won't even speak to me .

" UGHHH ! " , i groaned out loud .

" bro what da' fuck is wrong wit' chu' ? " , my cousin kayden asked . " das' the fifth time you done did dat' " , he finished .

i had kayden over just to keep me company . but the nigga has been no fucking help . i told him about what happened between jaide and i , and it's like its all going in one ear and out the other . and then he questions me why i groan all the damn time .

" im jus' stressed about jaide bruh' " , i explained to him once again .

" oh yea' , mane' jus' forget about dat' hoe . there's plenty otha' girls outchea' " kayden said as he leaned back on my couch sparking up his pre-rolled blunt .

" but Jaide was ma' bestfran' mane' " , i said as i furrowed my eyebrows and put my head down on the kitchen table .
" and no smoking in ma' house " , i mumbled into the table .

kayden scolded . i could feel him roll his eyes and i knew he was probably tired of hearing me bitch . but i was really in my feelings .

" man i gotta' getcho' ass out da' house " , he started to get up off the couch while putting his blunt in the ashtray .

" c'mon bruh' , go take a shower and put on some clothes , yo ole sad ass " , he said .

" nah' nigga cus' ian' goin' nowhere " , i replied slightly irritated . i just wanna sit and feel sorry for myself .

" yes bruh' " , kayden debated .
" you can't jus' sit hea' and cry ova' some bitch bro' , let's go to da' club or sumn' , it don't matter , but you is not sittin' up in hea' "

still thinking about jaide and ignoring kayden , i started to cry .

" ohmygawddd " , kayden huffed .
" is you trynna' cry me ah' river ? cus' if so , i could jus' head out " , he said pointing to the front door .

i just continued to let my tears fall free .

kayden groaned and walked over to me . he hesitated but started rubbing my back to somewhat confront me .

" yeah i definitely gotta getchu' out da' house forreal becuz' you cryin' like ah' luh' bitch " . he said cringing his face .

i thought about what he said while my head remained down . i need to pull myself together . i hear what he's saying , i could have any bitch that i want .

nigga im kaash paige . but then again , jaide just wasn't any bitch , she was my ride or die , my best friend . *sigh* maybe i do need to get out of the house though .

i sat up straight and started wiping my leftover tears .

" where'd you plan on taking me ? " , i questioned kayden after i fixed my face .

he slightly chuckled , " mane it's dis' new spot down on 301 called Savoy Heights , i heard it's lit so mayb' we could check it out & see what's da' hype bout' " .

i started nodding my head as i was thinking about what i could wear .

" it start at 10 so gon' head & get ready bra' bra' " , kayden patted my shoulder and went back towards the couch .
" i'll wait for ya' " , he said as he plopped down on the sofa and started typing away on his phone .

i looked down on my phone that was sitting on the counter top and the time read 9:35 .

i sighed as i slowly got up from my chair and made my way to the stairs that leads up to my depressing room .

        $ ' 15 minutes later ...

" aight' mane i kno' i said i was gon' wait for you & allat' but yo' ass takin' too long " , kayden yelled from downstairs .

i mentally rolled my eyes as i finished lent rolling my outfit . i looked in my body length mirror and just stared at myself .

i haven't looked this good since the Brent concert .

" C'MON NIGHA ! " , kayden yelled causing me to jump out of my trance .

i groaned in frustration and stomped downstairs . not without making sure i had my phone and wallet on me and one last glance at the mirror .

by the time i made it downstairs kayden was already out the front door .

i made sure everything was secure before i walked out and locked the door .

whew , there was a sudden breeze that brushed passed me and it felt so damn good .

i made my way to kayden's car that was already started up and we was on our way . 
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$ ' jaide in mm -😙 axriahanna