𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚜 ☆ 𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚍𝚒𝚎 ☆ 𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑

twenty six

⚠️suicide⚠️

richies pov

i woke up in my bed and looked to my right to see eddie

i looked down at my shaking hands and kissed eddies head

"im sorry, baby" i whispered

i quietly got up and sneaked to my bathroom

i saw my open pill bottle sitting on the side of the sink

"should i really do this" i thought

i closed my eyes tightly as a tear slipped down my face

i shook my head and tried silencing the sobs

i poured about almost the whole bottle into my hands and put them in my mouth without even getting anything to swallow them with

after a bit, when i finally started feeling weird, i walked back to my room to sneak into bed with eds

i almost made it to my bed, and thankfully eddie was still asleep. but right in the middle of the floor, i passed out, no, i passed away

i was gone

forever

eddies never gonna know what happened

i sat up quickly

i breathed heavily and was shaking a lot

i tried holding in the tears and the cries, but it was too much

the tears just fell and wouldn't stop

"richie? rich! what's wrong! what happened?!" i heard eddie scream as he ran into the room

"eddie..." i whispered as i got up to go see him

as soon as we reached each other, i just fell apart

i fell to the floor in his arms

"rich, what wrong?" eddie asked, hugging me tightly

"i-i-i had a nightmare" i sniffled

"rich, baby, what happened? do you want to talk about it?"

and so i told him

i told him everything, and that i was so so sorry

"richie you don't have to be sorry, it's not your fault, just promise me you won't ever do that, okay?" he kissed my cheek

"y-yeah, i won't" i hugged him tightly

"it's 11:34, wanna go meet up with the losers like we planned on?"

i shook my head and started getting dressed