Dear Yoongi [Completed]

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Dear Yoongi,

It's been quite a while since I wrote to you. A lot has happened recently. I had a crazy roller coaster ride I almost mistaken everything as a funny joke, but it's not.

I quit my job a month ago.

I've decided to take a rest for a while. I thought I made the right decision.

But when I stayed home, doing particularly nothing and feeding my mind with negative thoughts, I couldn't bear it.

Is this how am I going to spend the rest of my time here on Earth? I'm tired of being tired. I want to do something productive, but I'm too preoccupied of my thoughts.

Yoongi...

I've been sad for years, can't I be happy? Please, I want to be happy. I don't want to be miserable for the rest of my life.

I'm not doing anything at all. I just sleep all day and stay awake all night. It's getting creepy and I'm slowly losing my shit.

Yoongi, I'm scared.

What if I can't make it anymore? What if I would just decide to give up and leave everything behind? What if I'll just stop writing my letters of agony to you and shut people out of my life?

Would there be any difference if I just give up?

Yoongi, help... I don't want to quit life. What should I do?

love,
your nameless fangirl