Hitoshi's POV
I continued my way down the long ass sidewalk, pulling out the box from my pocket.
I removed the plastic, throwing it on the ground to meet the rest of the trash lined up on the side of the rode.I opened the box, pulling the foil off, letting it slip from my grasp.
I pulled a stick from the box, and placed it in between my lips, putting the box back where it rested.I pulled a lighter up to my mouth, lighting the nicotine stick and taking in a large inhale. I exhaled, it being followed by a large cloud of smoke.
I sighed, satisfied. Now I could begin to relax.
I know this isn't healthy for me either, but if anyone around me couldn't tell; nothing I do is healthy for me.
Ya see, an addiction can not be controlled. I would practically be killing myself if I just stopped. It would completely destroy my nerves and any less, my mental stability.It helps me.
When I was first offered it, I took it. About an hour later, my body longed for more. I looked it up and it wasn't until then that I realized that I would never stop the cravings, nor would I try.
I would never stop.
Not long later, I inhaled again, being surrounding in yet another large cloud of smoke, hitting my face.
I dropped the finished butt onto the ground, seeing as I was now outside of the subway station.
I sighed as I watched people rush around loudly.Great.
I walked down the stairs to meet the crowd, instantly regretting it. My anxiety levels rose and I started to sweat.
Jesus, why did I ever even attempt to try and become a hero?
I quickly got my ticket and retreated to the small, anal diseased filled bathroom, only locking myself in.
I stood next to the locked door, breathing heavily. People interact everyday? I can't even stand alongside them.
I recollected myself, bringing myself to leave the nasty ass bathroom. I unlocked and opened the door, stepping outside yet never joining the crowd.
I stood next to the door as I watched men go in and come out of it over the hour I had to stand there. Why did I come so damn early?
I finally kicked myself off the wall where I rested, and I started walking. I didn't know where I was going, but I was walking.
I stared at my feet, avoiding eye contact with anyone in case I meet someone from my 'business meetings'.
I hated when that happened, then I would have to make up some other stupid ass excuse.
"My dog is in the car!" I don't have a dog, or a car in that matter.
Of course none of them were aware of that.I never let them get close to me. We never really talk, we do the deed and I leave. They usually need me for a way to piss off their spouse or some type of revenge.
I don't really mind, I usually get a drink out of it.I was snapped back to my shitty reality when I felt something hit me. I realized that I ran into someone and instinctively offered them my hand.
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ღ Quiet Days. // SkinKami
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