The Arcana Domain. (Asra X Reader)

🍂MIDNIGHT🔥

I woke up at midnight, I felt that I couldn't breathe, I soon realized that Asra was lying next to me, he was hugging me very tight, he wasn't asleep.
I wanted to fight him, I wanted to cry out to him why he did that to me, I wanted to know who that woman was and why he stayed with her instead of going after me.

But instead of screaming and fighting, I just stood still, feeling Asra's warmth against my back. The tears started to slide down my cheeks and I tried to fight against the tension of my body.

Asra realized that I was awake, that I was crying and tightened his arms around me even more. He buried his head in my neck and took a deep breath of my scent. It seemed as if he, too, was in deep pain.

As- Forgive me...

Asra said with a heavy sigh. My anger and pain surfaced again, but still I couldn't ... I didn't want to get away from him. I took a deep breath without saying anything and calmed down.

MC- Why?

As-I'll explain everything, I promise.

MC-Start now.

As-It's a long story, you should ...

MC- I have all night, unless you have to attend to other matters.

I didn't mind sounding somewhat rude. I was upset with him but I didn't turn away. I rolled onto my back to come face to face with him. I looked him straight in the eyes, hiding my pain and he sighed deeply.

As- Of course not.

MC- Then I hear you.

As- Well... First you should know that I have nothing with her. I've known Eva for eight years, on one of my trips... I rescued her from some sick guys who were trying to abuse her in an alley.

I listened carefully, without looking away for a second.

As- When I finished with those guys, I took her to a shelter, she didn't have anyone to take care of her, so I took her there, but she didn't want to leave me. I tried to push her away many times, but it never worked, she followed me where I was going, no matter what I said. She started calling me "master", she was never my apprentice or anything like that.

Hearing these words made my chest lighten, yet I knew this story was far from over.

As- I gave her a house, I taught her to read and write, I also taught her how to do some things so that she could work. Some of my trips were just to see her and teach her these things, I admit it. But I've never loved her, I just took a liking to her, or maybe pity her.

This explained why Asra lasted so long on his trips. I couldn't help but feel jealous, but I managed to hide it and appear neutral.

- She fell in love with me. It was getting harder and harder to go home because she threatened to hurt herself if I left her. I told her about you, I told her that I didn't love her, I just wanted to help her ... Then the plague came to Vesuvia. You and I fought and I left home. I was with her that time, I was so upset that I tried to give her a chance. I tried to feel something for her but I was never able to do it. I could never stop thinking about you.

Tears started to come out of my eyes. I felt a great pressure on my chest. A mixture of jealousy, anger and sadness filled my heart.

As- And then I received that letter ... In which they informed me of your death and I could not bear it. I left her immediately, I didn't care about her threats or crying and I didn't care if she hurt herself. I never loved her, I just wanted to be with you. The rest of the story you already know.

MC- So while I waited for you every day and tried to help others, you were sleeping with her...

The words flowed from my mouth like poisoned arrows. Asra felt the pain of my voice and started crying.

- I know, I'm an idiot, I'm so sorry. I left you, I lied to you, I hurt you so much... I don't know what to do, (y / n), I never thought I would see her again, and I never wanted to. I don't love her, I love you. Please tell me what to do, I don't want to lose you.

I felt as lost as him. I never believed that something like this would happen between Asra and me, but I certainly didn't want to know more about his past with her.

MC- Finish what you started.

As- What do you mean?

Asra looked at me confused and with tears in her eyes.

MC- You brought her here, I don't care under what circumstances, so do what you have to do with her, let's find those girls and then we'll see what happens between us.

Asra nodded, reached out to kiss me but I moved back, rejecting his kiss.

MC- Good night, Asra.

I told him and turned my back on him. He sighed heavily and nodded, saying nothing more. The rest of the night passed in painful silence and cold distance.