I Fell In Love With My Best Friend AU

12. Mistakes and Outcomes

You better be prepared.

A lot of things happen in this chapter.

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"Aspen, it's been four days. Why don't you just talk to her?" Avery asks as Belleza and I continue to give each other sad puppy glances from afar

Today's Friday.

Game day.

Ironically enough we get to cheer at the volleyball game, which means that Belleza and I will be spending an hour together.

That's not including the pregame and postgame either.

If you haven't noticed Belleza and I haven't spoken to each other since Monday.

Every time she would walk up to Avery and I, I would make up an excuse and walk away.

There were multiple times that she would try to get in touch with me through Avery but I'd just ignore her.

I already fucked up once, I can't risk doing it again.

"Because I already hurt her feelings, it'd be useless to try and fix it now" I say as I nervously fidget with the edge of my cheer skirt

Our coach makes us wear our uniforms to school the day of the game.

I don't know why but I chose not to question it.

"You're lying" Avery states

I groan out with annoyance as I roll my eyes at her.

I hate it when she does this.

She can always tell when I'm lying.

"Okay, so maybe I'm scared" I say quietly as I continue to mess with my skirt

"Scared of what?" She asks genuinely

I begin to nibble on my bottom lip as I cross my legs.

"Rejection, judgement... not being good enough" I say vulnerably as I wrap my arms around my body protectively

"Aspen, you're more than enough for her, trust me" Avery says with a gentle tone

I just give her a weak smile as I look down at my phone.

"I think that I'm going to head to class early" I say before I grab my back pack and swing it over my shoulder

"Do you want me to come with you?" Avery asks as she starts to grab her belongings too

I quickly stop her with a head shake.

"No, I think I need some time to myself" I say with an unsure smile

I quickly turn around and start to make my way out of the library.

Gosh.

When did this life thing become so hard?

Sometimes I wish that I could go back to how things used to be.

If I could, things would be so much simpler.

I would probably be dating Charlotte.

I wouldn't be in a complicated situation with my favorite celebrity.

And the best part.

I'd still have my memory of that day.

I get pulled out of my daydream by someone tapping my shoulder.