Nothing in this world is ever painless...or at least that's what I feel – right now as I listen to Creature Comfort by Arcade Fire, I feel like they are singing right to me. Even though I'm not really one of those girls.
I never really wanted to be famous, not really. I didn't really hate my body either. Even though I know I'm fat – hell I'm unhealthily fat...but at least I know I can get it off if I try...but that is the thing, I don't want to try. I just want the world to pass me by and leave me lying here...really I just want my depression to leave my brain and leave me normal.
I know normal isn't a thing – perfect isn't something either. Still, I wish I were normal...by normal I don't mean anything about my sexual identity. Even if I don't fully understand it at times I don't feel like that is my issue. I simply wish, even though wishing a bullshit idea at this point, that I wasn't depressed and that my neurons functioned in a way that....didn't make me feel like I were going to end up like Frankenstein's monster in Young Frankenstein...y'know 'Ab-someone'...y'know Abnormal.
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General Fiction"Abuse does that to you - sure, you can say that this, is abuse. I know it is. I own the fact that my family life is fire and brimstone and navigating it isn't easy, but it wasn't like him. He was worse." At times harsh, its a simple story about lea...
