Love leads me to Sadness

Prologue

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I am a smart person, I am always in the top of the class. Maraming humahanga sakin because of my excellent ability when it comes to academics. Kilala akong tao bagkus sikat ang aking pamilya, Kung tutuusin ay nasa akin na ang lahat, pero hindi. May kulang pa rin sa buhay ko.

"Hapon na Gail, sasarado na ang eskwelahan maya-maya, dapat ay umuwi ka na" Sabi ng librarian sakin.

"Sige po..Paalam po! Bukas ulit!" Nakangiting sabi ko at kaagad binalik ang mga librong kinuha ko.

"Mag-inagt ka sa pag-uwi mo, dumidilim na pa naman"

"Opo..Bye po"

Kaagad akong umalis sa library at dumiretso sa school's gate, Today is just a normal day, walang kabago-bago. Kailan kaya babago ang buhay ko?

Walang interisado sa buhay ko kasi wala namang kabuhay-buhay ito. Sino nga bang tao ang magkakagusto sakin? Oo, mayaman at matalino ako pero boring ang buhay ko..isa lang naman akong babaeng libro lang ang palaging kasama at pag-aaral ang inaatupag.

Walang nagkagusto sakin. Oo, maganda ako pero tulad nga ng sinabi ko ay boring ang buhay ko.

In this world full of pain, I'm just here sitting at the bench and thinking what would happen the next day even though I already know what it is, Yeah..school again, kaumay.

In this world, No one dares to love me, Yeah..I have my friend, and my older sister but how about the other people? How about my parents? Do they love me? No.

I sighed. Ano pa bang aasahan ko? Hindi na magbabago ang buhay ko. Itinakda natong ganito kaya dapat ay makisabay na lang ako. Wala na akong choice.

But..to be honest? I always thinking if what if there are someone who'll love me and treat me like I was the only girl that he loves? Like a boyfriend? Well, I don't think that 'somone' doesn't exist at all. And besides, men isn't my thing..it doesn't exist in my vocabulary though.

Speaking of men, a random guy just stared at me so I confusely look at him, What's with him?

Ilang minuto pa siyang tumitig sakin kaya sinamaan ko na siya ng tingin.

"What?" Inis kong sambit but the guy just chuckled.

He smiled sweetly and walks away. Ano yun? Nagpa-cute sakin? Asa siya. I don't like men, it's just a waste of time and energy..

It's just a waste if you'll love a man, malay mo pinanganak lang siya para saktan ka. Lumalayo lang ako sa salitang 'sakit' and I don't think there's something wrong with that.

Oh well..

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