The Difference

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Jaemin smiles softly as he skims through his camera roll. There were many pictures of him and Donghyuk at the mall. A ton of hilarious photos of him, Mark, and Chenle. There was a video of Ten and Jisung dancing a cover to Taemin's 'Want'. A few selcas here and there, a good amount of memes, and a huge number of him and Jeno (mainly just Jeno though) going on dates, playing around, taking selcas...and so many more.

Today was a very calm day for Jaemin, he didn't need to work in the bakery, and dance didn't take as long as it usually did. He had already finished his homework and he was planning to call Jeno later on, for he knew his boyfriend was probably eating dinner. He just hoped Jeno wouldn't be too tired to call tonight because Jaemin had a fairly big surprise for him. He had been planning it all week and it was finally finished, and just in time.

Jaemin laughs loudly as he sees an old picture of him, Mark, and Hayoon on the first day of freshman year. "We were so silly and carefree back then..." He chuckles, and lays on the couch, just smiling happily.

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"Jeno..."

"Don't Jaehyun...just...not right now. It's already hard enough, I don't need a pep-talk." Jeno speaks into his hands, head placed against the car dashboard. Jaehyun just nods.

"Ok." Jaehyun parks the car in front of a familiar blue-doored house. "You're strong Jeno. Just remember that." The boy only nods and gets out of the car, walking up and knocking on the door. A few seconds later, it opens to reveal a very smiley Jaemin.

"Jeno? What are you doing here?" He opens the door a bit wider. "Do you need to come in?"

Smiling softly, Jeno shakes his head. "N-no...I just need to tell you something." His face falls, making Jaemin concerned.

"Baby? Is everything alright?"

"Jaemin-ah."

"Mmm?"

"Whatever I'm about to say, just know that I...That I...." He pauses, his emotions getting the best of him. He wipes away his tears, not daring to look at his boyfriend in the eye. "That I'm sorry."

"Sorry? For what?" Jaemin tilts his head in worry. He reaches his hand out for Jeno's arm but the boy steps back. "J-Jeno? Jeno what's going on?" The nervousness in his voice rose when he saw his boyfriend sniffling. But still, Jeno wouldn't let him touch him. He wouldn't let Jaemin hug him. Hold him. Care for him.

"We need to break up."

"Wh....J-Jeno, stop playing games with me. Come on..." Jaemin smiles weakly, but he could already feel the tears falling down his face. "Come on Jeno, this isn't a funny joke."

"I'm not joking. I'm breaking up with you." It took everything in Jeno's body to keep his voice steady, to not bring Jaemin into a tight hug. But he couldn't. He wouldn't allow himself. He couldn't hurt Jaemin even more.

"J-Jeno, baby p-please...Please don't..."

"Don't call me that."

"I-If I did something then just tell me. We can talk this out...we can fix whatever went wrong...Please...y-you promise y-you wouldn't l-leave me..."

"We can't fix anything Jaemin. We're over. That's final."

"P-please...please Jeno...d-don't do this..." Jaemin's body was trembling hard, his sight foggy and distorted thanks to the shower of tears falling from his eyes. His voice was cracking and his heart was breaking.

"Goodbye Na Jaemin." With an icy voice and dead look, Jeno goes to his brother's car, not turning back. He gets in, not looking out the window to his ex-boyfriend. Not looking to see Jaemin crumple to his knees. Not looking to see a final plea leaving the crying boy's lips. He didn't look back to see the love of his life break. All because of him.

"I'm so sorry Nana...I'm so fucking sorry..."

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Sooyun holds Chan to her chest as she, Doyoung, and Jaehyun all watch their youngest brother board the plane. They had no idea how long he'd be gone, but they knew it'd be a long time till they saw him again.

It was only until the plane was up in the sky, that Jaehyun decided to speak.

"I guess this is what he was feeling whenever we left for college." His voice was soft, trembling, able to break at any moment.

"Yeah...but I think he's feeling it way worse." Doyoung agrees.

"Fuck this." The two brothers sharply turn to their sister in surprise.

"Noona?"

"Chan is right there in your arms."

"I don't care. Dad can break them apart, he can send Jeno away, but he will not control who I or Chan get to see. So you can bet your asses that I'm still letting my son see Jaemin. It's the least I can do, for both of them." She looks to the sleeping toddler in her arms, the soft snores taking over the cries that he was letting out only minutes before.

"You know," Doyoung starts, a small smirk growing on his face. "I've been calling him Mr. Lee behind his back for the past 3 years. I only call him dad when he's around. He doesn't know at all." Jaehyun and Sooyun chuckle softly.

"Do you even have a way to contact him?"

"Who?"

"Jaemin." Jaehyun clarifies.

Sooyun nods. "Yeah. I mean, I have his number because we would schedule meetings for him and Chan. Never told dad so I still have his contact."

"Noona...I think you should explain..."

"I will. I'll tell Jaemin what's going on. But for now, I don't think he wants to hear anything from the Lee family. He's heartbroken, and one of us stepping in will only make him hurt more." She sighs and turns around. "Come on you two, let's get home." The brothers just nod and follow after their sister silently.

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Jaemin lies on his bed, the room around him dark. The endless tears had left dry streaks on his face, and he was too emotionally drained to even think about cleaning his face.

"Why..." His voice was croaky and broken, just like his heart. The analogy made him chuckle coldly. "Why Lee Jeno...why did you leave me...Why does everyone always leave me...It's like I'm cursed...am I really that unlovable? So much that my boyfriend left me...? God...Look at you Jaemin, you're pathetic. Crying over a boy. What's become of you...You used to be so good at hiding your emotions, so good at being lonely...what happened to you..."

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∆I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry IM SORRY sdkgrgfosrigfhs that's all I gotta say...I'M SORRY :( also happy Jeno day aha how ironic....∆