Grief...
It's that feeling...
That feeling
that makes you feel like you're drowning,
your legs aching,
as you try to stay afloat.
It's the feeling of sadness,
clawing at your throat,
threatening to let itself out.
Out with a choke,
or a sob.
But you hold back
just enough so that nobody
would realise.
Realise that you truly weren't okay.
Even if you said you were.
Grief...
It's that smile.
That smile you've been
so good at faking,
that no one really asks
if you're okay anymore.
It's a cry for help.
A cry for help that no one hears.
That makes you think
that they don't care,
so you keep it bottled up inside.
But in reality,
they do care.
You just don't realise it,
because you're blinded.
Blinded by all that hurt you're feeling.
All that hurt you're concealing.
Grief...
It caused that anxiety,
rising higher and higher,
making you want to cry.
Cry in front of your classmates,
because you're too scared
to present in front of them.
Or it causes the anxiety
that rises when you are presenting,
and you feel like they're judging you.
Judging every mistake you make.
Counting the number of times
you stumble over your words.
The number of seconds
it takes for your legs to stop shaking.
Grief...
It's a horrible thing to have to deal with,
and I don't want anyone to have to go through it.
Not even my worst enemy.
But if you are dealing with it,
you'll get through.
Because I did too...
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Lost Thoughts
PoetryThis is a poetry book I'm working on at the moment. I'm planning on publishing it once it has about 100 poems in it minimum. I hope you enjoy!