Rosen from the Ground

20/20

The thought of you brought me pure joy and excitement.
I Had so many plans, goals, and achievements that were to come.
However, when you arrived I dont think anyone ever imagined.
You shifted the trajectory of the change to come.
You placed things on a halt and drifted people further apart.
We were never in this together, that's a slogan of a false dream
Hatred and tensions rise as we stay inside.
You have brought me sadness, hurt, anxiety and false hope of the uncertain.
You brought me so many responsibilities as you've taken the very thing away from me "Love " Companiship.
All I ever wanted was to be heard, desired and wanted in all forms.
Yet i guess I'm just gone unnoticed.
Misunderstood from everyone's perspective.
I just wanted to be happy, loved, and healthy.
That's all I asked for.  But I see clearly now.
This is not about everybody. This is a time for a new me.
Getting over my fears of the unknown. Fear of change. And you given that to me. 
It's not always what you want but its everything you need.
I needed me more than ever.
I needed to give myself self care.
Positive love , a mental break.
You have tested me in so many ways. 
I am not where I want to be yet but I'm not who I was before.
This clear vision to love , change and growth.
This is just the beginning for me.