I Met You [Jenlisa]

Chapter 22

Jennie POV

The first thing i do when i woke up was opened my phone , checking if there's a messages or any replies from lisa but to my disappointment..there's none

i'm not be able to sleep last night , i was crying all night long..thinking how stupid i was for doing such things to lisa.i keep blaming myself , and i'm really the one who need to be blamed on.i do admit my mistakes , but there's no use anymore..it's too late..lisa hate me..she leave me..

"Jennie?" I flinched at the sound of my door got knocked by my mom.i wipe my tears and cleared my throat before i answered

"Yes mom?"

"Come downstairs , i've prepared a breakfast for you" my mom said and i shout back telling her that i'll be there in a minutes.after brushing my teeth and wash my face , i look at myself on the mirror , making sure there's no sign that would made me get caught by my parents.except for the dark circles under my eyes , i'll just tell them that i can't sleep well last night

My dad was calling with someone on his phone , while my mom was preparing my food on the table.she give me a bright smile which i return it with a smile as well.i sit on the chair but suddenly , my mom walk closer to me and lift my face up by holding both of my cheek with her hands

"Honey are you okay?what is this?" My mom said while her thumb softly caress my eyes , maybe talking about the dark circles.like i thought , she would asked.i give her a reassuring smile and nodded

"I'm fine mom , just can't sleep well last night"

"what's bothering you dear?" I let out a light chuckle and shake my head

"Nothing mommy..i'm fine , trust me" she look at me for a seconds with a worried look , tried to find if i was lying or hiding something , but gladly she just nodded and ruffle my hair

"That's good to hear..let's eat" she said and sit beside me

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"Jen our class almost started , until when you want to stood there?" Jisoo put her hands around my shoulder.i look at her and give her a weak smile

I'm waiting for lisa..standing in front of the school gate like a statue , earning a weird gaze from all the students , but like i care about them.i came to lisa's place earlier to pick her up like i always do , but the house are still empty.my anxiety grew bigger as negative thoughts keep coming in my head

Nothing happened to lisa right?

"Jen" jisoo snaps her finger on my face causing me to flinch and look at her.worried obviously written on her face but i quickly give her a smile not wanting her to worried about me

"Oh i'm sorry...what did you said?"

"Are you okay?" Jisoo asked , frowning

"I'm oka- oh our class would started in 2 more minutes..let's go?" I said with a smile , holding jisoo by her hand and drag her to our class

My intention of coming to school today was to meet lisa , but she didn't come...

my lecturer was busy explaining to us about the lesson , but my attention was not on him.my eyes was on the screen projector but my mind was thinking about something else , i'm not even listening on what he said as i'm busied worried about other things.

Sometimes i would tried to clear my mind from thinking about those things to let myself rest for a while.rest from hurting myself , not pysically but mentally.my heart feel so much pain everytime i think about it and it's somehow made me felt frazzled