DEAF HINATA AU - The Sound of Silence

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Hinata POV
It's been about four days since my mum left.
I can't say it's been bad, but trying to get Natsu up so early every morning is a pain in the ass.

I struggle to find the motivation to do homework and plonk on my bed as soon as I walk into my room.

I put my arm over my eyes, and failing to fall asleep I look at the time.

9:37

I didn't except it to be so late.

I assume my mum will come back either today or tomorrow.

It doesn't matter either way.
I barely get to see her anyways.

She comes home after spending the week in a married mans bed and sleeps until she gets another booty call.

She'd have panic attacks and end up falling asleep on the floor, it's like routine.

I don't complain about it too much, after all, it keeps her from shouting at me.

And occasionally, she'll be in a mood like a normal mother, and make Natsu and I dinner before putting on a movie.

She's not as bad as my mind makes her out to be.
Or maybe that's just me lying to myself again.

My thoughts are interrupted by a vibration on my back.

I hadn't realised it, but I was laying down on my phone.

It's a message from Kageyama.

All it says is,

'Hinata'

Kageyama POV
It's been bugging me for awhile now.

Why does Hinata still want to be my friend?

Personally, Hinata is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I didn't have anyone before him.

But Hinata made someone like me enjoy his company.

He could be friends with whoever he wants.

As I thought about it more, my breathing got heavier.

Why?
Why did he want to be my friend?
Nobody wants to be my friend.

I find myself start to panic a little and end up throwing myself on the floor to get more space.

I groggily reach for my phone and message Hinata, not knowing what to do.

KAGEYAMA: Hinata

HINATA: Yeah... what's up.

KAGEYAMA: Can I ask you something?

HINATA: You don't have to ask to ask me something... what is it?

My hands shake as I hover them over the keyboard.

I couldn't ask him something like this.
Not over text anyway.

KAGEYAMA: Can you... come over maybe.

HINATA: Is everything ok?

KAGEYAMA: I don't know...

I message him my address.
I feel stupid now for inviting him over.
That was just impulsive I guess.
But there's nothing I can do now.

I pick my fingernails and wait for him to come.

Hinata POV
He told me to come over and sent me his address, so I knew something must be happening.

Kageyama wasn't a very open guy, I always messaged him first and he always came over.

I told Natsu that I'd be home soon and got on my bike.

It was really cold, and since it was evening the wind that brushed against me with every pedal was ten times more freezing than it was this morning.

I saw the fog that each one of my breaths created and pedalled harder as they faded passed me.

I shifted my vision to and from the map and the road, and made it to Kageyamas house in about 25 minutes.

It wasn't far from the turning point; walking from school must take him about 10.

I parked my bike and took my stuff, knocking on the front door.

It was a big house, two stories, modern and polished.

Now that I'm knocking on it, I think about the time he spent at my house.

I honestly feel a little embarrassed.

My house is small and old.
It's made mostly of wood and bricks but it's the only house I've ever known.

When the door opens, Kageyama peers through the entrance.

He's still in his uniform, his eyes are red and he looks distressed.

'You ok?' I mouth to him.

He takes a deep breath and says something.
I can make it out quite clearly.

"Am I good enough?"

The cold breeze in the air stops blowing, and a silence that I've never heard before falls.

I try to speak.
"K..Kag...eyam...ma?"

"Am I good enough for you?" he says again, closing his eyes this time.

What do you mean? I sign, desperately. Am I good enough for you?

From what I can make out he says,

"Your fucking amazing. So why do you hang out with someone like me?"

Even I can tell he doesn't know what he's saying.
This isn't the only reason he called me here, there's something else on his mind.

As I walk up the steps the wind starts blowing again.

Small tears trickle from his eyes and he wipes the aggressively.

I take his hand and bite my lower lip, trying so hard not to lash out at him.

I squeeze his hand firmly.

Kageyama POV
I didn't know what I was saying.
I didn't know why he was listening.

He grabbed the hand I was wiping my tears with and squeezed it tightly.

"E...enough?"

I'm surprised he can speak as clearly as he did, I could barely make out the difference between someone who could speak and him.

"You're... too much"

He smiles at me lightly, and genuinely. "You're... more than... enough"

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We somehow end up next to my downstairs fireplace, when Hinata starts sneezing.

"It's so cold" I tell him "You could've worn a jumper."

He smiles groggily at me, before sneezing again.

'Sorry' he mouths with a toothy grin.

Lucky he came in, because when I look outside it's snowing heavily.

"Sorry for dragging you here" I tell him after grabbing his attention, genuinely apologising for making him bike all the way here in this weather.

He shakes his head and smiles.

It's nice to get out of the house every once in awhile.

He messages to me.

Is Natsu home? I message him back.

No, she's at a friends house.

And what about your mum?

She's still gone.

I look at him solemnly.
He looks back smiling.

I bet he's used to it.

He types to me:
What's the real reason you called me here?