The Girl He Didn't Want

Chapter 31

Mayas POV

It wasn't that long I had been at home before someone was ringing on my doorbell. I didn't remember ordering food or anything so I wondered who it could be. When I opened the door to see who it was, I got surprised. James was standing right in front of me. 

He didn't have the same fresh and effortless look on his face though. It seemed like his eyes were heavy and droopy. His whole body seemed more tensed and he looked so tired. Almost like he hadn't slept for days...

I wanted to shut the door right at his face but didn't have the courage to do so. Instead I told him to come inside. I might as well just hear his rejection and then move on.

'Come in'. He observed me, hesitated for a while but then took a step into my home. We walked into my living room and there I waited for him to speak.

'Maya, is it true that you are getting married to some stranger?'

My eyes widened and my heart stopped for a while. How in the world could he know that my parents were looking for a husband for me?

Even though I couldn't gather around my thoughts of how he knew, I didn't want him to hurt me even more. It was better to give him the impression that I wasn't interested in him for a second.

'Um, yeah. I think I'm ready for marriage'

'But with someone, you don't even know? I never thought you were into arranged marriages...' he trailed off sounding a bit too concerned. That was strange.

'Well, you can never really know a person a hundred percent, right James? Anyway, why are you here?'

He looked at me like he was hurt by my words. He really looked like a wounded animal. I wanted to hold him and kiss him, but I knew that he had someone to do all those things with anyway.

'You sent me a text message about not seeing each other anymore. I don't quite understand. If you are angry with me because I haven't been more outreaching these couple of weeks, I can explain Maya'

I turned around so he couldn't see my tears welling up in my eyes. It was too hurtful to let him see me vulnerable like this.

'I don't need you to explain anything James. I just think it's the best for both of us to not see each other again' I struggled to make my sentence as clear as possible. My voice was trembling, and I wanted to cry aloud.

'Maya, I have something that I want to tell you'

I wiped away the tear that had betrayed me by falling down my cheek and then turned toward him again. I held my arms crossed in front of my chest as a way to protect myself.

'It's fine. Don't bother telling me. I already know' I whispered. I was beyond disappointed when my voice failed me. I was supposed to sound stronger and more confident. Instead I just sounded like I was hurt and heartbroken.

He froze at my comment. He had his coat in his hand and then let it go so it dropped on the floor. We both glared at the coat lying on the floor. His lips were parted, and he somehow looked confused.

'You know? But why do you react this way then? Is it wrong of me?'

I shot him a hard and cold glare. How dare he ask me if it was wrong of him to lie to me like that!

My cheeks were heated, and I wanted to tell him to get out. But I didn't have the strength to do it. Somehow, I still wanted him to stay and I wanted to hug him. These mixed feelings towards him were exhausting me though. I sighed.

There was complete silence for a minute. Neither of us said anything for a while. Then he broke the silence by asking me another question.

'Why didn't you tell me what Oliver did to you?'