The nanny• Kim Namjoon

chapter 60

“they have arrived in Korea?? Get them to happy palace hotel were there’s a reservation under my name and tell them to contact me when they’ve settled, thank you” namjoon hung up on Jackson then tossed his phone.

He let out a frustrated scream and slammed his hand on the desk of his study. Time was closing in on him for this project he’s been working on for the past three months, it would only be a matter of some hours before everything would unfold and namjoon grew frustrated and nervous.

He was frustrated because Diana was hiding something from him and he figured that if it was something personal she would’ve told him unless it has to do with her past which he is yet to know about but it was something bigger than that, he could feel it. He was also frustrated because of the lack of faith he has in the work he put to together within the time he was given, feeling as though he could do it all over but it was too late.

He was nervous because he was afraid that his work wouldn’t be good enough to be presented to the company he is collaborating with. He felt as if his project was all over the place and with the way he’s been feeling mentally as well as barely taking care of himself physically, he was unable to make any changes.

“are you alright?” Diana asked in a small voice, barely audible but namjoon was able to hear it. He looked up at her and sighed, “I’m just frustrated that’s all” he responded, sounding distant.

Namjoon stared into Diana’s puffy, bloodshot eyes as if she’d been crying for hours. She looked down when she realized that namjoon’s tense features morphed into one that represented worry. She quickly looked down upon realizing that he might’ve figured out she’s been crying, making her feel to cry again since he was the reason she cried.

“come here” namjoon ordered sternly, he has had enough of her crying, the sight was too much for him to see constantly and it hurt more that he didn’t know the reason why she was crying. Diana looked up at him and started crying again then walked out of the study, namjoon knew better than to run after her, after what happened the last time, so he just let her be.

Diana couldn’t be near namjoon right now, she cried all night because of the amount of situations that played in her mind, she thought of those ways she how could tell namjoon everything, what his reactions would be like and what could happen afterward and in every scenario namjoon always ended up being the only person getting hurt which would make her cry more. It took everything in her not to tell him, now wasn’t the time, he has a big project reveal coming up and she didn’t want to ruin it plus she wanted hwasa to there when she breaks her silence – fuck- speaking of hwasa who only made everything worse , how could he tell namjoon that she’s been having an affair with her all this time?

Diana started hyperventilating, gasping for air as he was unable to breathe. She began shaking while holding her chest that was tightening, feeling as though she was going to faint anytime soon. Namjoon heard her gasps and rushed towards her, just in time to catch a fainting Diana in his arms.

He felt his heart drop then skyrocket moments after he studied her face. She was losing weight which raised his concerns more since Diana loved to eat, this was eating her inside and namjoon was starting to feel selfish and nosy, he needed to know what it was too, he wanted to help her.

Time skip

Namjoon sat next to Diana who was laying in his bed unconscious. He was just staring at her, admiring her beauty and caressing her face occasionally. She was undeniably gorgeous with her plump lips, thick eyebrows and perfect nose, she looked like someone the gods took their time to create and namjoon appreciated that, he cold stare at her all day, knowing that he had more important work to do.

He accepted whatever he felt for her even if it scared him. He knew that she didn’t feel the same way, I mean who could fall for someone who treated them like shit then magically started giving a shit about them? But he didn’t care, it didn’t stop his feelings from blossoming into what it is now and he didn’t choose anything, you don’t choose who you love and even if it was a choice he would still choose to love Diana over any other.

He couldn’t confess to her now, he needed to test his own feelings and figure out if he had a chance with her. He couldn’t act on his feelings yet, Diana still sees him as a married man which he is not, maybe telling her the truth about his marriage with hwasa could be a step in the right direction.

Diana suddenly wake up in a coughing fit, wheezing with her upper body moving, namjoon rushed over to her and offered a glass of water which she declined but ended up drinking it anyways because namjoon forcefully fed her, which only made her cough more.

When her coughing died down, she muttered a hoarse ‘thank you’ and namjoon just hummed.

“want to know something?” he incited and she quirked an eyebrow at his sudden giddiness. He looked like a kid high on candy, ready to run around or talk non-stop, what got him all excited?

“mhm, go on” she urged and namjoon remained quiet for some time, making her impatient. He looked as though he was having second thoughts but he knew that she would press so he went ahead with it anyway.

“hwasa and I aren’t married” he blurted out. This news hit Diana like truck. Her mouth opened to say something to express her shock but closed it as her face began looking constipated.

 Namjoon expected a response from her but as moments went by, her face contorted into something that was unreadable to him which worried him. She didn’t look happy and she didn’t look sad or angry either but she looked like she was deep in thought which made him regret telling her, what could she possibly be thinking about?

“d-did you guys get a d-divorce?” she managed to force out, her voice wavering as if she was on the verge of crying but namjoon’s mind was filled with confusion to notice.

“no, our contract ended a long time ago but I’m now deciding to act on it”

a/n I know that I said I'll be updating twice a week but I got stabbed in my hand from my mom and I was unable write anything for a while, I'm alright now btw