Have you ever wondered?
Wondered why the sky is blue?
Wondered why the grass is green?
Have you ever wondered how?
How to do maths?
How the guy got the girl?
How that author could just kill off that character?
But have you ever thought?
Thought about why people only act as if they care?
Thought about why your mind is your enemy?
I have
I always do
These thoughts haunt me during the day
They keep me up at night
Sometimes I feel scared
Other times I feel like I am being strangled
But I know that I will never get rid of those feelings
As they haunt me during the day
As they keep me up at night
As they lead me astray
Why can't I live up to their expectations?
Why do they taunt me?
Why do they pressure past my breaking point?
Why am I not good enough?
My friends think I am fine
My parents think I am faking it
And the professionals will never know
The trauma keeps me awake
The memories are always there
The violence and screaming repeats in my dreams
The yelling never stops
Whether in my dreams
Or in reality
I have to go.
Yours sincerely,
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Dear Diary
PoetryShort 'Diary' entries of things that have been going on in the lives of both my friends and I, as we try to stay "afloat" in this world
