Dear Diary

.4. Dear Diary

Another day

Another long day

Another long annoying day

I sit hear listening

I work my hardest

I try my best

My work is finished

It's too high standards

But I am not proud of it

I try my best to smile

To look happy

To keep up that reputation

But I guess there are some days

Some days that you just can't fake

No matter how hard you try

Your mask cracks so much

So much that even those who don't know you ask

Ask if you are ok?

But you know you can't tell them

Not because you don't know them

Or don't trust them

But because you don't even tell those are close to

For all, you know your friends don't even realise

But you hope

Hope that they see

Hope that maybe they will understand

On the other hand

You don't want them to know

Either you don't want them to worry

Or you think they will turn it against you

But hey who am I to judge

Especially about what others think of me

After all, I have to keep a diary

Just to keep sane

To keep my thoughts controlled

Only today I wished

Wished I could curl up into a tight ball

In the corner of the classroom and cry

But hey that was my day, today

Maybe tomorrow will be better

I can only hope!

Yours sincerely,

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