in love with zach herron

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once ash said that i drooped to my knees and just thought was i really that selfish i thought about the first time me and ash talked i thought she was a stuck up bitch that just hung out with people who thought they were the best in the world. i was in chorus and i had a solo in the concert we had and they day after the concert everything changed all of my old friends drooped me and i  made it into the popular group everyone knew who i was and i got verified on instagram that year it was just our junior year tho and everyone knew i would make it big and everyone wanted to be with me and i soaked it all up while ash just started to talk to me and i saw she wasnt a stuck up bitch she was real or was she only in it for the clout than i stood up walked over to her and slapped her and said 

g;the only reason you ever talked to me was for the clout you whore 

a;what do you mean 

g;the day i got verified ring a bell

a;oh but that was not for clout 

g;than what the hell was it for 

a;i thought you were cool

g;no you always wanted to model and the day you saw i was out there you thought i would get you out there to and i fell for it im so fucking stupid for it 

she than pushed me and said

a;ya you fell for it you also fell for every person who said they loved you i mean look zach didnt and i dont think eben dose

i than looked over at eben and zach my eyes started to burn and i knew i was about to cry and than i said

g;well if thats how this is gunna work dont fucking bother me again ash

a;than dont fucking call me ash

g;fine you whore 

i walked on to the bus and punched the wall than got my shit and grabbed every thing that that whore gave me and opened a window yelled out of it and said here you go you hoe and threw it all out and than shut the window and sat on my bed and i noticed 1 thing they all got along with out me maybe i was the reason every thing has ever happened to them and than slammed my face into a pillow and started to cry because i had so much stress on me i dont see my child i dont have people around me who care and i havent even talked to anyone who really cared for 5 and a half years and than i push everyone away who really dose care because i think they just want clout well i guess iv been with clout sealers for 5 years and i hate my self for it i hate how i think someone cares when they dont