M O N A M O U R

• regret •

Glancing at the wall clock, she sigh for the nth time.

1:56 in the morning.

She's been waiting for her husband to arrived but she's been sitting there for god knows how long, but then their nine months old baby started crying making her stood up from her seat.

"Shh, mommy's here." she grabbed the bottle and put it on her baby's mouth as she rock him back and forth. The little boy named Bentley stop crying after some minute of being on his mother's embrace, she sigh tiredly and put her baby on his crib when she heard the front door opened.

It's her husband.

Entering the house, he just throw somewhere his coat and head to the kitchen to drink some water. Jennie immediately follow him as she noticed that he is drunk. Again.

"Jimin..."

"You're drunk again." she mumbled but her husband just throw her a glance before walking past at her, as if he just noticed her presence now.

He was about to walk past her but he stumbled due to his drunken state so Jennie immediately came to his side and put his arms on her shoulder as she took hold of his waist to keep him steady.

She struggle a lot as she carried him to their room, once inside, she gently lay him on their soft mattress. He's already snoring.

She sigh. It's been happening for the past few weeks. Him, going home late at night then drunk. She doesn't know what's happening to her husband but she noticed him getting really distant towards her.

She walked towards the closet to get him a shirt and a gray sweatpants, she also get a wet towel and a water before sitting on the bed.

Removing his long sleeves and pants, her eyes landed on his abs as she gently wiped it with the wet towel making Jimin shiver a bit so she do it fastly and after she was done she quickly dressed him up and fixed his position in a more comfortable way.

She stared at him while combing his soft hair with her fingers emmiting a little moan from him, she smiled.

She was smiling but her eyes were pouring tears because of the pain that she can't let out.

"Why?" she can't help but to suddenly ask. Did she do something wrong for him to act like this? He's becoming further and further away and even though he's just close, yet she can't feel him. She can't feel his comfort anymore. She's scared, not just for the both of them but also for their baby.

"What's happening?" she asked barely a whisper as tears keeps falling from her tired eyes. She doesn't know what the hell was happening to their marriage, she's scared to know what he feels, she's scared to know if he still loves her because she herself doesn't even know if he's still in love with her.

"Sleep tight."

That's all what she said before laying next to him as she hugged him closer and tighter and snuggle to his neck.

Waking up with the familiar emptiness, she sigh tiredly. He's not there anymore.

Stretching her arms, she stood up and did her routine quickly. She then went out from their room and head to their baby's room, she smiled seeing that Bentley is still fast asleep.

She walked towards his small crib and smile lightly at her baby. Seeing how her baby look so calm and peaceful brings her contentment.

She went out for a moment to head to their kitchen to cook for their breakfast. She sigh, Jimin didn't even bother to reheat the food last night to eat, he's been like that for weeks, leaving early but will go home late. She's used to it but she's still worried about him. What if he wasn't taking care of himself? She should take care of him because that's her duty but he won't let her. She just heave a sigh and cook a basic food.