On the brink of insanity (On-going)

6

Its nearly to dawn, and i'm still awake. Hugging my own thighs and sobbing in the corner of my bed. I wipe my own tears using the back of my hand and then i reach my phone in the table. I need someone to talk to. I tapped 'one' on my dial pad to contact Hazel. And i placed my phone beside my left ear. Its ringing. And while i'm waiting to pick up my call, i sniffed. 

Then a moment of few seconds, my call got on hold. "Hey! Gising ka pa ba?." I said.

But there's no response on the other line but an  audible yawn instead. Okay, i think Hazel is in a deep sleep, i'm so stupid to meddle her resting time so i'm about to hang up the call when someone speaks.

[What do you need?]

A guy talks with its husky voice. Omg! who is it? And why does it sounds familliar? Or i'm just hallucinating? Pero who the hell is it?

"Where's Hazel?! Are you with her?." I asked with an authoritative tone. Its kinda making me anxious. I don't know but i'm agitated with a thought that Hazel slept with a guy. Oh no! I'm not ready to be a ninang pa! Pwe!!! Stop over thinking, Ellie!

[I think you are misleading. Care to check the number you're contacting, will you?]

I am like reprimanded but i do what he told so. The hell! Hindi pala si Hazel ang natawagan ko nga. As what flashed on my phone screen, a  number with a contact name 'S'. And pumasok na sa isip ko na baka si Sean ang katawagan ko. Probably, kasi kalalagay lang ng number nito sa phone ko kaya baka iyon na ang nakaregistered na una sa dial pad ko. Shoxxx!!! Baka isipin ng lalaking iyon nagawa ako ng paraan.

I bit my lower lip. "My apologies, i am badly mistaken." I paused. "Ah-- uh--i'm really so-- sorry for the inconvenience." I uttered with a soft voice, kahit hindi ko talaga feel na humingi ng paumanhin. But i'm like a bad person if i would not do it.

[Don't say sorry if you're not sincere, with your faulty action. Besides, i'm not constraining too.]

Is he something with a psychological ability? O ganon na ba kahalata na pilit lang ang pagsasalita ko? Perhaps. Somehow. Maybe. "Oh okay." I shortly reply.

[You've must be occupied. Maybe your overrunning with sick thoughts or anxieties. Don't be. The paranoia can eats you up,Ellie. I hope you give yourself a time for break or to rest.] 

Like i'm surprised. Is he giving me a friendly reminder? And then i heard that the other line beeps so he hang up na siguro. Napaisip naman ako sa sinabi nito. Oh i got it!  Its like i need to unwind. Napahiga na lang ako sa kama, napatingin sa kisame at inantay na mapagod ang mga talukap ng mata.

Kinabukasan ay maaga akong gumising, para makapagjogging. I wore my black adidas sports bra and pink track pants. I ponytail my medium length hair. I'm not used to workout or shred my fats, kasi hindi naman ako tumataba masyado. I do gym when sinasama lang ako nina Hazel. But now is a different case, i feel like i need to resorted my attention to something so that hindi na naman ako magbebreakdown like yesterday. I'm ashamed of myself pa rin na natawagan ko si Sean pero even we have a short talk, i realized na may substance naman ito kausap. Parang nakapagfree consultation din ako sa mental practitioner.

Lumabas na ako ng bahay namin, and its a freshy day. Medyo malamig ang simoy ng hangin, kaya i do a small jog papunta sa park ng subdivision namin. I'm a little sweaty ng makarating dun. Napatingin naman ako sa paligid and wala masyadong tao. Hindi na naman masayadong maaga, its 6:35 am na nga e. Pumunta na lang ako sa isang bench para makapagpahinga.

Then while i'm wiping my own sweat using my face towel, a pomerenian puppy approached me suddenly. Siguro nakawala ito kasi may tali pa. Kinukuskos nito ang sarili sa aking paa. I don't know what i will do kasi it's too little. I'm afraid na baka masaktan ko ito kapag pinagpag ko o iginalaw ang aking paa.

Fortunately, a slim pretty woman wearing a blue shirt and velvet shorts appeared. I think we are closely at the same ages or she's younger than me. And she must be the owner because she caught the little puppy. So i sighed as a relief.

"I'm so sorry miss," she faced me and her face looks kinda familiar. Maybe, nakita ko na siya kung saan. I can't remember, pero parang bago lang din naman siya sa sa subdivision.

I stood up. "Its totally fine, your puppy looks cute naman ih." I pointed it and i smiled to the woman.

"Yeah, she's Jewel," and she pinched the nose of her puppy. "You like dogs rin ba?," tanong nito pagkatingin sa akin.

"Slight and depende sa breed, hehe" pag-amin ko as i gently patting the head of Jewel. "Btw, bagong lipat ba kayo sa subdivision?." I asked kasi nga new face sa akin.

"Ahm, yeah! We moved here last week," she replied.

"Oh okay!." I stopped, habang tumatango tango. "Well, welcome to the neighborhood and its nice meeting you. Anyways, i'm Ellie." I introduced myself as i gestured my one hand to her.

Inabot niya naman ito. "Sofia," we shake our hands and then after a few seconds binitawan na rin namin ang isa't isa. "Its like we can jive on each other company," sabi pa nito sa akin.

I laughed a little. "I think so." I reply.

At nagkwentuhan na nga kami sa park, parang long lost friend lang ang peg. We both have same interest about things, kaya magkakasundo talaga kami nito.

"Really? You also watch thai series?," I said with so much joy kasi baka may makakonek na sa mga kinukwento ko kapag nagkataon.

"Yeah sis, especially those series of my baby Chimon," Sofia blushed but i just furrowed my brows kasi iyon din ang super duper crushie ko.

"Jeez! He's my husband, so back out Sofia!,"madiin kong wika.

"Haller?! You know sharing is caring, Ellie. Don't be so greedy!," she mocked me.

"I will share but not for too long. Find other thai actors na lang, okay?." I winked to Sofia, and i see na napailing na lang ito.

Then in the middle of our conversation, Sofia's phone rang. So she picked up the call, at lumingon naman ako sa paligid na lang. Pero dahil malapit lang sa akin si Sofia talaga, i can't help it but i'm like eavesdropping na. Then i heard a familiar voice on the other line. Siguro naman ay hindi ako mali, kasi nakausap ko pa ito kagabi. Its Sean voice.

Natapos naman agad ni Sofia ang tawag at lumingon ito sa akin. Gusto kong itanong kung sino yung katawagan nito pero parang ang pakilamera ko naman kung ganun. Bad idea! Kaya huwag na lang.

"Sorry, Ellie but i have to go kasi my housemate is getting tantrums na yata," Sofia explained to me.

"No worries. I have a great time naman with you." I exclaimed.

"I am too. Maybe next time again, Ellie,"saad nito.

"Sure thing." I grinned. But my inner self wants to know kung ibang Sean o yung taong kakilala ko ang kausap nito. Pero may mapapala ba ako kung may malaman man? Damn! How intriguing naman kasi!
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