it hurts until it doesn't

time's a slut; it screws everyone over

written: august 9, 2019 (day 31)

when i was younger,
i wanted many things.
to fly,
to sing,
to dance,
to see the world,
to live forever.

now,
i want to burn my body,
i want to destroy it,
i want to forget,
and i no longer believe in the future.

-my life is nothing more than a warped fantasy