written: april 21, 2020 (day 287)
the worst truth
finds me in
the most unholy
and wretched of
times and places.the worst truth:
i miss him.
he might be
the monster in
my dream, but
first, he had
been my friend.the worst truth
is that i
want to forgive
him just to
return to normal.
but i can't.
that would go
against everything that
i have learned
to stand for.the worst truth
is that i
hate him but
sometimes i don't.
i miss him
instead and that
hurts more than
he ever did.

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it hurts until it doesn't
Poetrya collection of poetry the start of the story: 7•09•2019 published 7•09•2020 trigger warning: rape