voices. • the third book in the mute. series • muke au

again.

Michael.

Words could not describe what I was feeling at this moment. As Luke trialed kisses down my arms, whispering how perfect I was...I could feel my heart beating, for the first time in weeks. I was so in love with Luke.

"I love you Michael, I really do." he mumbles against my skin, looking up at me with those piercing blue eyes, bright as ever. I brought our lips back together and began to trial kisses down his stomach, until I reached the band of his boxers. I hooked my fingers into the elastic, pulling them down slightly. Placing ghostly kisses on his hip bones.

"You're so beautiful kitten." I breath, "I love you so much." I whisper. I want to show him how much I loved him. It was one thing to say it, now I had to show him, prove it to him.

"I love you too." he smiles, his cheeks tinting pink.

Eventually I pulled his boxers down completely, going back to his lips. I placed kisses on his back as I removed my boxers. The only thought running through my mind was how in love I was in, it was driving me absolutely insane. Luke began to wither underneath me.

Suddenly, his breathing grew heavy and he ripped away from me, turning back around and covering himself with the blanket. Did I rush him? Did I push him? Did I make him uncomfortable?

Yes, yes you did.

A voice erupts in my head.

No.

No, no,no. Just ignore it...they'll go away.

"Kitten, I'm so sorry, I didn-"

"Calum raped me." he rushes out.

He's lying Michael. He cheated on you with Calum, he doesn't love you. He loves Calum. Why do you think he just rejected you? You're disgusting.

"Stop." I whisper, almost inaudible. I look to Luke, he was sobbing, but I couldn't hear him. His chest was rising and falling, like he was taking fast, rigid breaths. But I couldn't hear it, all I could hear are the millions of voices exploding in my head.

Just imagine, Calum making little Lukey moan out his name.

"Stop." i say a little louder.

Luke, a sweaty mess beneath him.

"Stop it."

Calum moaning how good the kitten felt.

"Shut up!" I clamp my hands around my head, tears already spilling over my cheeks. I sink onto the floor.

Calum breathlessly telling Luke he loved him.

Luke saying it back.

Luke doesn't love you, he feels sorry for you. He only came back out of guilt. I mean, you tried to kill yourself...he just didn't want to look like an ass. That's the only reason he came back to your pathetic ass. Out of pity.

Luke Hemmings doesn't love you.

"STOP IT!" I scream, full on sobbing. Luke is quickly by my side.

His lips are moving, he has ceased crying. He had worried filled in his eyes.

See? He pitys you.

"GET OUT OF MY HEAD!" I scream so loudly, my ears ring.

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"Michael?" a voice questions, Ashton.

I flutter my eyes open, Ashton was standing above me. The ceiling was white, a take a look around.

I was in a hospital.