voices. • the third book in the mute. series • muke au

crying.

HELLO BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE

so i went to my competition yesterday annnnnd i had to wake up at 2am(cries) then I didn't get home till around 3am SO I WAS AWAKE FOR 25 HOURS

SUCH FUN

their were realllllllllyyyy good choirs there and i was terrified BUT WE WON EVERYTHING AGAIN AND I CRIED AND SO DID A TON OF OTHER PEOPLE

AND WE MAY HAVE QUALIFIED FOR STATE ALREADY

i find out on monday

IM SO HAPPY

SO UPDATE

AND FUCKING CALUM HOOD IS 19

fml

the tears r real. these damn boys need to knock this aging shit off like im only 15 hold the fuck up and let me catch up>.<

hopefully michael will wait for me cuz im almost 16...in like nearly 6 months(august 7) and he said he would date someone 3-4 years younger:) which i am currently 4 years younger but i think he would rather date someone who was closer to his age

ha look at me thinking i even have a possibility of dating him ID BE LUCKY TO BE WITHIN 5 FEET OF HIM

k ill shut up now

byeeeeeeeeeee

hugz and tickles

-carlee

Luke.

"Luke honey, you have to at least try to get out of bed. Please, your daughter hasn't seen you in days, don't you want to see her?" Kat strokes my head as I lay on my side, facing away from her as I  continue to cry.

"Of course I want to see her," I sniffle, "I just don't her to see me. N-Not like this. I'm supposed to be her dad. I'm supposed to protect her, hold her when she cries, not vice versa."

"Well then stop crying." Kat shrugs as if it were s easy.

"Kat," I sigh, "I'm not like you. You were so strong when Calum left, as if it didn't even affect you."

"It didn't affect me, I was happy he was gone. My love for him was-is-gone. I hate Calum." she sneers through gritted teeth.

"Have you heard from him?"

"Don't you think I would've told you if I had? No one has heard from him. I couldn't care less where he is or what he's doing."

"It's different for me, I am still in love with Michael. I want him here, I need him." I cry silently. "D-Do you remember when I was in America with Calum, and you called him, but I picked up? You said something about calling the police and telling them what he did to you. What did Calum do to you?" I ask warily.

She takes her hand away and inhales deeply. "Calum did a lot of things to me, to other people." her voice shook. "He hit me, he had sex with me even when I begged him to stop. People at my ballet company began to ask questions once they started to see my bruises. They accused him of beating me and he-he threatened them. He nearly killed one of the men dancers who tried to defend me. He thought I was cheating with him, even though Calum cheated multiple times." she sniffled, "Do you know I fond him in our bed with two different girls? And a dude." she laughed sarcastically. "He told me he would kill me if I told anyone. He was never like that, well, not at first. When I first met him he was sweet and caring and he told me he loved me every chance he got. He would always hold my hand and kiss me and remind me how beautiful I was. It changed so suddenly...I don't even know who he is anymore. He hasn't said 'I love you' in probably over a year, maybe more..."