Sometimes, I have dreams of getting better. Dreams of life never trying to dig this shattered pieces of my world into my skin. I know it won't. I know I'm too naive to understand that fate and reality have a death grip on me and I have to face it with an emotionless face.
I lost touch with Kayla today. Seems to make everything harder losing someone you've become attached to. I lost Alex last month. Now it's Kayla. I'll go back to being lonely and sad. Though I was still sad with them around they both brought out the happier side of the sadness. It felt good to have people who cared, seems like the world has the need to take that away from me everyone I get it.
I wonder if they'll get over me, forget me. I'm not someone who is unforgettable. I'm easily forgettable. I'm just that type of girl. Alex and Kayla though, they've never been forgettable. Their faces are something along the lines of Greek mythology, the beauty they hold is not even equivalent to the beauty of Aphrodite. They were exactly what held me together and yet, they'll be exactly what breaks me because they were my last hopes to getting better. Only they had faith me.
I have faith in you both. Especially you Kayla. No matter the heartache or hurt you feel keep your head up and be strong, for me. I know you hate those words but believe me. I mean them. You're like a sister. I need you and in time you'll be back with me. So keep your hope. Keep it bottled for the times you need it most and if you run out, take some of mine.
I already want to die.
