𝐨𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐧 | 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐣𝐢𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠

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me:
you didn't tell me that you like someone
mind telling me about it?
u know u can tell me everything, right?

jinyoung:
mark!! hello!
how did you know that?
and yes, i do like someone, sooyeon
from my class. i've been making a move since day 2 lol

me:
ayeee jinyoungie's a big boy now omo
is that why you left the other day?

jinyoung:
pretty much.. and also the other time
that i forgot... she actually asked us to eat with
her. i couldn't say no to her.

me:
ooooooh, it's fine. did u have fun?
and i guess u have agendas w her
afterschool as well? u haven't been walking
home w me lately.

jinyoung:
i also drop her off afterschool, that's why i couldn't go
w u anymore :( sorry, mark.

me:
well, that hurt.| deleted
as long as you're happy, i should be happy, right?| deleted
but why do i feel so empty?| deleted

it's okay nyoungie. i rly hope u guys get together
sooner the better, ryt?

jinyoung:
thank you, mark <3
i'm really lucky to have you
i couldn't ask for a better best friend.

right, best friend. why does it hurt everytime he reminds me of what i am in his life.

my vision is starting to get clouded with tears that i hope wont spill as i typed my reply.

me:
of course, jinyoungie.
as long as you're happy :)

i'm really trying to be happy, i swear. but it seems like every time i tell myself to be happy for you, i can't help but feel sad and hurt for myself.

at this point i'm not even sure if i'm afraid of you forgetting me, you falling for someone else or a mixture of both.

i got so lost in my messy thoughts that i didn't notice tears were falling down my cheeks.

why am i even hurt, it's just a crush right?

i sighed and hugged my peach plushie as stray tears kept on falling.

a/n:
stage 1: the confusion and denial stage.

also, if you have noticed, in the beginning the contact name for jinyoung was 'jinbutt' then later it's just 'jinyoung'. the reason for this is NOT because i forgot about it. it's mainly because i wanted to give a hint of the future events. it's like they were so close before college and then all of a sudden, they're going back to square one wherein they're somehow apart; just like what's being depicted in the current chapters.