Our Hopes And Dreams || Verivery(very slow updates)

13.Sick

Trigger warning: injuries, blood,animal attacks

Hoyoung opened his eyes and was met with a familiar roof,he looked on the side and saw the empty space that once belonged to his brother and realized that he was in his old room,in his house in new Zealand

"Ugh"he groaned as he pushed himself to sit and held his head to ease the headache,he tried to take a deep breath and stretch but it stung and he started coughing uncontrollably

After few minutes hoyoung stopped coughing and stood up to leave his room when he felt weird things that were attached to him causing him pain,he looked at what caused it and found tubes piercing through his body,he didn't know where did they come from but for some reason they didn't seem off place,but the blood dripping from them was.

The tubes pierced the veins in his hands,wrists,some went under his sleeves to the forearms and others were in his feet,but hoyoung never seemed to be bothered by it,in fact he grabbed the tubes is his feet and pulled it out,causing him to bleed more and yelp because of pain,then he left the room with swingy and unstable steps to see if someone was in the house

The house was awfully quiet and the corridor was dark and cold, there was no trace of neither his sisters nor the pets,never in his life he felt the house this gloomy and quiet,he concluded that they might be in the living room but it was downstairs and he can barely control his steps

He reached the stairs and gulped at the look of it,he held the rails so hard his knuckles turned white and took the first step, sighing in relief as his feet didn't fail him but now he has to continue,the second step went smoothly, followed by the third one, then the fourth,but when he reached the fifth step his feet decided to betray him and he fell all the way down

He was able to clearly hear his family talking in the living room but he couldn't understand a word,however he knew what they were talking about, about expenses,about their problems,about him,and he hated every inch of himself because of that

He tried to stand up and go back to his room but he couldn't,he tried to crawl but the tubes on his arms was making it painful,he tried over and over but all his tries ended with failure,he just lied on the floor, heavily panting,it felt as if air was being sucked out of his lungs,no matter how much he gasped air never seemed to enter

"M-Mom......D-Dad" he called with all the power he has despite it being very little,more blood was coming out from the holes and cold started to flow through his veins so he called more, hoping for someone to help him, suddenly he heard yelling but this time he was able to understand

"I TOLD YOU THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH HIM" he heard his father yell and then his mother yelled back

"WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?ALL THESE PROBLEMS AND YOU CAN'T FIND ANY?JUST LOOK AT HIM"

"IT'S ALL ABOUT HIM, THAT'S ALL YOU CAN SAY"his sister yelled "HE'S NOT THE ONLY ONE HERE,YOU KNOW HE'S A HOPELESS CAUSE AND YET YOU IGNORE ALL OF US FOR HIM"

The argues kept ringing in his head,even though he's supposed to get used to it it still hurts then one of his sisters yelled something that he already heard before many times

"I WISH YOU HAD JUST LET HIM DIE LONG TIME AGO LIKE HE WAS SUPPOSED TO"

Hoyoung wasn't angry about this,nor sad,he's used to it by this point and he's busy concentrating on his own hell right now,he kept fighting to get some air but every time he took a breath air seemed to get forced out of his chest and things got worse when he started to cough,he feared that his lungs were about to explode with every cough as the tubes went deeper under his skin,making him bleed more

"H............help"he said in wheeze as few tears fell from the corners of his eyes but no one seemed to answer him,he shakily held his neck, leaving blood prints all over it and curled into a ball while trying to calm down