&&. 𝗟𝗢𝗡𝗚 𝗝𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗡𝗘𝗬. ( ateez )

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"i'm sorry i don't know who you are?" mingi said as he looked at you with an apologetic face. you mouth opens slightly as your eyes widen for a few seconds before you quickly compose yourself. you looked down at your feet before looking over that the window. basically everywhere but at mingi. he watched you with careful eyes as he notice how distraught you look. "what's your name?"

you met his wide brown eyes that you love so much and try to hold back what feels like tears. damnit pull yourself together, y/n! you thought to yourself as you took a deep breath before speaking to him. "y/n."

"y/n," your name rolls off his tongue so smoothly like it has done a thousand times before this moment. the only difference is that he doesn't remember any of the precious moment. "i like it," he says giving you his famous bunny smile. heartache train hope it has room for one more. "i guess you already know my name, huh?" his head falls to the side in a curious manner and you couldn't help but notice how his brown locks bounced in that moment.

you nod in reply to him and nothing else. he stares at you with a look like he is trying to figure you out. he's probably trying to figure out who you are to him, but is shy to ask or something. he took in your whole appearance. from your messily combed hair, to your wrinkled up shirt and oversized jacket, the stains on your pants, and down to your untied shoelaces. she's a very messy person, he thinks to himself. "so... how do we know each other?"

shit! fuck my life! of course he was gonna ask why am i acting so surprised? what do i tell him? just tell him we are in a relationship together?

"Um... well we are boyfriend and girlfriend," You said softly as you look away from him in order to not see his reaction. To be honest you're scared to know what type of reaction he would have. You're scared because he wouldn't remember all of your moments together that you did. All the tight hugs, from soft and gentle to rough and passionate kisses, and all the nights you spent wrapped up together in a blanket on the couch watching Iron Man for the thousandth time. You don't want to look at him because looking at him means accepting the truth that he doesn't remember any of it. Will you have to start over from the very beginning?

"oh," he sounds surprised, "i'm sorry." you look at him with wide eyes. "i'm sorry for not remembering. i can see you're hurting and trying to hide it from me. please don't hide it from me." you take a few careful steps to him and he watches you as you do and you sit down on the edge of the bed. mingi notices the dark circles under your eyes and they seem a little bloodshot from the lack of sleep – he doesn't know that you waited by his bedside for the past week for him to wake up.

he doesn't know how the nurse would come in and find you drifting off to sleep and would give you blanket, but you quickly got over your tiredness. why? for him. he doesn't know about how you cried for three days straight because you were scared that you would lose him. he didn't know that your fear came true, but not the way you thought it would.

he looks from your tired eyes down to your intertwined fingers and noticed the two rings stacked on top of each other on your index finger. he reached over to grab your hand and you jumped at the sudden contact. you soon relaxed when he placed your hand, the one with the rings, on his large one to look at the rings. they seemed familiar to him.

"they're our couple rings. we got them after being together for a year," you told him and he looked up at you with his innocent eyes. you took your hand away from his and slipped the bigger sized ring off your finger and then slipped it onto to his index finger. he stared at it for a few moments before looking at you and smiling at you.

"how long have we been together?"

"four years."

"that's a long time."

"yeah it is. we started dating our second year of high school and we've been together ever since. I had transferred into your class and our homeroom teacher assigned you to me. to help me around and make me feel welcomed. you were so cute that I was nervous about making a good impression. you were so nice to me, and it made my heart flutter." you smiled fondly recalling the memory. "your friends teased you thinking i was your girlfriend. you blushed so hard that i couldn't help but laugh. you pouted and scolded me for laughing at you," you added with a laugh.

mingi looked at your smiling face before smiling a little himself. he leaned his head forward and onto your shoulder as he slowly went to hold your hand with his. "i want to remember. please help me remember," he says in a pleading voice and you faintly hear it crack as he presses his face into your shoulder.

#message. originally written in 2017 for jungkook, but i decided to change it to mingi and post it. so if it sucks blame 2017 smalls and not 2020 smalls lol. also having a new book coming out as a special for october, so be on the lookout for that if you are interested!