Memory

Chapter 21

**THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS ADULT CONTENT THAT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR PEOPLE UNDER 16. VIEW DISGRESION IS ADVISED**

6 Months Later

Y/N’S POV
As crazy as my situation was, These past few months were finally very relaxing. No fighting, no stressful situations. Bucky and I were….happy. Genuinely happy. JJ was a healthy baby boy and even if he wasn’t biologically Bucky’s kid, JJ loved him, and Bucky loved his son. JJ's mind was growing fast. He was smart, he could say words already, he could comprehend what we were saying to him, Shuri told me that due to the serum in my body, he got some of those effects but we wont know for sure if he has any real powers until he's little older. It warms my heart when I see them together. Bucky would take him outside and have him play on the farm while I went through training with Okoye and Shuri. I was now familiar with my powers and what I could do. I could move things with my mind, I could release white fire from my hands, I could also manipulate fire. I can walk through it without a burn and I could control my powers enough to where the fire that came from my palms, wouldn’t hurt those who I didn’t want it to. I could control who it affected. Okoye also helped me with hand to hand combat and Bucky let me use his favorite knife to train with. I could flip it like him and sometimes he would even be my training partner, but that isn’t all the time considering we can’t stop laughing when we're together. I was now sitting outside in the field under a tree drawing in a little notebook that Bucky gave me. For him, writing gives him a sense of peace and sometimes jogs his memory, or helps him remember things, so he figured it could help me too. I watched as Bucky and JJ bonded a couple of yards away. Bucky was throwing him in the air and catching him. Bucky’s laughter made me the most happy I could have ever been. This life was perfect. I went back to drawing and then shortly after I felt a tap on my knee.
“Hey, JJ is getting tired so I’m gonna go put him down for a nap.” Bucky told me with JJ his arms.
“Okay.” I smiled. Bucky was about to walk away but I could see him hesitating. 
“You okay?” I asked.
“Y-yeah, uhm…” He then knelt down to my level.
“Do you wanna go on a date tonight?” He asked, which made me laugh.
“What’s so funny?” he smiled.
“You’re the father of our child and you’re asking me on a date.” 
“Well, if you think about it, we haven’t been on our first date yet.” He said. 
“Wow we really did this backwards!” I said, making us both laugh. 
“What do you say? Tonight at 7?” He asked. I leaned over and kissed him. 
“I’d love to.” I said. He smiled and started to walk away. 
“Dress nice!” He yelled. I gave him a thumbs up and then went back to drawing. 
6pm
I started getting ready in our room. Shuri offered to watch JJ for the night. Bucky was taking this date very seriously considering he left our room at 5pm to “go get dressed so he could arrive and pick me up properly”. He may be 100 years old but he still acts like a gentleman from the 40s. I slipped on a fitted, floor length dress and made sure my hair was done nicely. I went over to the full body mirror that also doubled as my closet door and gave myself one last check. I had some small burn marks on my hands and chest form when I gave birth but everything else looked good. I heard a knock on the door and I looked at the clock. 6;50, he’s early. I ran my hands over my dress one more time before walking to the door. I opened it and there he was. He was dressed in black jeans and a black henley, with both sleeves rolled up on his forearms to show off his new black and gold vibranium arm, which looked very sexy by the way. 
“Wow..” He sighed, his eyes scanning my body. 
“Shut up.” I laughed. I stood there in silence as Bucky looked over me. 
“You good there, Sergeant?” I laughed. He was pulled away from his thoughts and smirked at me, he cleared his throat and then held out his arm for me to grab. 
“You ready?” He asked. I nodded and then followed him down and out of the building. He led me back to the field we were in earlier. 
“Am I overdressed?” I asked. He laughed and then we kept walking. We then walked over a small hill and I saw a small table with two chairs on the dock near a lake. There were candles, flowers, and food already set. We walked up to the table and the moon shining on the lake gave us enough light to see for miles. 
“Bucky…” I whispered. I was so surprised. He pulled out my chair and then he sat across from me. 
“What do you think?” He asked, smiling, but also very nervous. 
“This is……” I honestly couldn’t find the words. It was so magical.
“Bucky I…..I don’t think I deserve all this.” I sighed. 
“What do you mean? Of course you do. You deserve much more than this but this was all I could do in a day.” He told me. 
“Thank you…” I smiled. We clicked our glasses together and took a sip.
“Wow this is really good!” I smiled. 
“Oh good, T’Challa gave me this bottle of wine and said that it was the best they had.” Bucky laughed. 
“Wakanda’s finest.” I said. The dinner was amazing. Bucky and I got to know each other very well in the past months, but tonight we laid everything out on the table. Biggest fears, what makes us vulnerable, happiest memories, everything. We couldn’t have been closer if we tried. 
“I’m in love with you, Y/N. I honestly didn’t think it would happen to me, and I know it seems really fast but...god, am I in love with you. When I opened my apartment door back in Bucharest and saw you there, I could tell you were genuine. I didn’t know why but I trusted you almost instantly. Things moved very fast and normally I wouldn’t put myself out there for someone so quick but...I did and I….It was the best decision I could have made.” Bucky admitted. I felt tears well up in my eyes as he spoke. 
“Bucky I love you. You saved my life. You may not have felt like you did but….who would have known what could have happened if I was in that apartment when Simon came back. Thank you. I owe you much more than a thank you but...truly, thank you for everything. And I know it may seem like you threw me into this crazy life with the whole high speed chase, the airport, the raft prison and now Wakanda but….I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t having so much fun. Sure there are cuts and bruises but...nothing matches the adrenaline and how I feel when I’m with you. I’ve only known one type of love my whole life and you...you opened my eyes to a whole new type of love. The realest kind. With you, I feel safe and protected and … you've made me happy. Honestly and genuinely happy. You're taking on the role as JJ's father and I-..thank you." I said, while tears fell halfway through. Bucky and I enjoyed our delicious dinner and kept making each other laugh. It was a perfect night. When we finished up, we walked back up to the building and then to our room. 
"Wow, a first date and we are already spending the night together." Bucky joked, making me laugh. We walked into our room and I kicked off my wedged heels, sighing in instant relief. I went into my closet and found a nice pair of shorts and a casual t-shirt. I took my makeup off and felt refreshed. I walked out into our room and stopped short. Bucky was standing there by his dresser in nothing but his boxers. I usually only see him in his training gear or his sweatpants and tank top for bed. He looked over at me while I was staring at him. 
"Hello?" He smirked. I snapped back to reality and and walked to my side of the bed. 
"Sorry."I laughed.
"Don't apologize!" Bucky smiled. He was now staring at me.
"Now you're staring." I smiled. 
"You're beautiful." He told me.
"Stop it." I said brushing it off.
"I mean it!" He defended. I rolled my eyes and grabbed the brush near my bed and brushed out my hair. I then turned around and put our windows on our privacy setting. 

BUCKYS POV
I don't know why I was so nervous. We've slept in the same bed for the past 6 months. I watched through a mirror as she brushed out her hair. I couldn't help but stare. She really was beautiful. I didnt bother putting my sweatpants or shirt on considering I was already sweating. I dont know why I'm still so nervous. We slid into bed and Y/N turned the lights off. The moonlight from the window was enough to light up the whole room in this soothing light blue color. 
"Thank you for tonight, Buck." Y/N said. 
"We should do it again some time." I smirked, making her laugh. I wrapped my arm around he and she cuddled into my chest. 
"Did you really set the table up yourself?"she asked. 
"I had some help." I said. 
"Who?"
"T'Challa owed me a favor for trying to kill us so." I told her, making her laugh.
"Well it was amazing." She smiled up at me. I leaned down and I kissed her. Her hand then came up and cupped the side of my face. Before I knew it, we were making out. She climbed on top of me and straddled my waist. She flipped her hair out of the way and ran her hands down my chest, then stopping on my left shoulder. Her hand then warmed up on rough skin where my flesh meets the metal.
"Woah.." I said, pulling away.
"Does that hurt?" She asked, concerned.
"N-No..no it … feels really good." I told her. She smiled down at me and then we continued kissing. She leaned back and tore off her tank top. If she couldn't hear it before, I'm sure she could hear my heart beating out of my chest now.I held her waist firmly as I flipped us both over so I was on top. Both of her hands were holding the back of my neck. My hand slipped behind her and undid her bra with a snap and she slipped it off without breaking the kiss. 

Y/N'S POV
Bucky kissed down my jaw and on to my neck. I was in a state of euphoria at this point. Of course I hoped this would happen but I wasn't going to pursue it if he didnt. He made his way down my stomach and then slid off my shorts and underwear. That's when my eyes rolled to the back of my head. He made his way from my inner thighs to the one place I was waiting for him to go. He knew exactly what to do. My hands were gripping the sheets so hard I felt like they were going to rip. His hands stayed on my hips the whole time, holding me down. 
"Bucky….I.." I sighed. I dont know why I was trying to talk, I literally can't form any words. My mind was completely blank just enjoying the feeling. When I finally felt close, my hands grabbed onto his hair. He looked up at me and smirked. 
"Let go." He simply stated. As if on cue, I did as he said. I have never felt more relaxation and pleasure in one moment. When he came back up, he kissed the sweet spot on my neck. as if he needed to add more sensations. I let me hand fall down to the waist back of his boxers and he got the hint. He slid them off and got back on top. My hand started to wander back down, until he grabbed my hand and pinned it above my head. 
"Let me take care of you…" he whispered. He didnt have to tell me twice. He kissed me passionately and then pulled away and looked into my eyes.
"Tell me if it's too much...if it hurts...anything. you give me the sign, I'll stop." He told me. Again, I couldn't find the words so I just nodded my head. He then slowly slid into me and I get now why he asked me those questions now. When he was finally all the way in, which was never ending, I gasped and he groaned.
"Are you okay?" He asked. 
"...y-yeah…" I told him. He smirked and then kissed my jaw. I threw my hands around him, holding him against me. When he finally started to move and keep a rhythm, my hands got lost in his hair. Both of our moans took over the room. My nails slid down his back, making him groan in my ear. My legs were wrapped around his hips and basically locked him in. My whole body was warming up again. 
"God Bucky...I'm...oh my god." I tried to say. 
"I know…" he said with his voice strained. My back then arched off the bed and Bucky's metal arm flew to the headboard above us. We released at the same time and then tried to catch our breaths. Bucky pulled out and collapsed next to me. 
"Woah…." I sighed. Bucky looked over to me and kissed my cheek.
"Jesus…" he said, making us both laugh. We stayed there for a couple more moments before I got up to use the bathroom. I grabbed my clothes and put them back on. I looked at myself in the mirror and I couldnt believe what just happened. After getting myself together. I finally walked back out. Bucky was in some grey sweatpants now and we both laid back in bed. I leaned on his shoulder and he placed his hand on my leg. We didnt say anything to each other because we didnt need to. We ended up falling asleep, both feeling so insanely happy. Everything had now fallen into place and we were peaceful. This stress free life was something we could both get used to.

The End

Book 2 coming very soon!