It's Because We Love You (Stray Kidz Fanfic) •

Chapter 12

"Seungmin could you help me?"

I have been bedridden after labor, my body too weak to do much else. My bladder is painfully full and I cant bring myself to rise on my own. Seungmin chuckled at me before leaving the room, closing the door behind himself.
I couldn't help but raise an eyebrow.
Ever since I gave birth, Stray Kids hasn't been giving me the attentive care like they used to, they tell me to do it myself, acting aloof and rude. And I just dont understand.
Even Bang Chan is bothered by me, he kicked me out his bed, saying that he needs the leg room, but before he gladly snuggled up to me...
Is it because I'm ugly after giving birth? Well people do say you age 10 years after having a child, do they not like me anymore? Am I no longer their Little Snow? Or are they using me? Were they using me? These thoughts hurt my heart, what if a this time they've been--

The door suddenly busted open and Lee Know walked in with Baby Yeonjun strapped to his chest.
He looked around until his eyes landed on me sitting on the floor, wrapped in a towel.

"Oh Snow~" his eyes softened at me, he kneeled down and lifted me bridal style. Yeonjun was peacefully sleeping, unbothered, I looked into Lee Know's eyes, and they were different from the rest, in meaning they are the same. He is the only one who hasn't changed, who hasn't treated me differently. From the beginning he always cared about me, was gentle, understanding, loving to me.

"Not Little Snow?" I said more to myself in a soft mumble, but he heard me.
"Well my dear, you aren't so little anymore now are you?" He motioned to Yeonjun.

"Why didnt you tell me you needed some help?" Lee Know said as he carried me to the bathroom, earning some expressions from the rest I really cant decipher. He took me to the bathroom, locking the door behind himself. He sat me on the toilet, pulling down my panties for me, my towel, everything, all so I could use the bathroom comfortably. He kneeled at my feet, looking up into my eyes as if in a daze, giving me cute smile.

"Lee Know,"

"Yes?"

"Why is everyone suddenly treating me differently?" I said, kind of embarrassed it's coming out of my own mouth.

"I'm not." He shook his head, keeping his smile that helped me gain more confidence.

"Why are the others treating me differently?" I corrected myself.

He just took a moment, staring into my eyes, thinking carefully about his answer, making me more worried.

"They're...upset about something." he stated very carefully. I could tell he was trying to be vague, but I am just too curious.

"About what?"

Before he could answer, Yeonjun started to whine, woken up from his nap when the toilet flushed. Lee Know was quickly on his feet as I washed my hands.
"Ooh~ look who's hungry." He cooed in a baby voice to Yeonjun, i couldn't help but smile at them, I wish Yeonjun's father was that caring...

Lee Know was about to leave but I caught him by the crook of his arm.
"Wait, um... I want to try breastfeeding." I said shyly, I've always dreamed of being a mother, taking care of my baby, breastfeeding it, loving it, and in my current condition I cant do that, but at least... at least I could do that with Yeonjun.

Lee Know tried to hide the proud smile on his face as he set me on the counter and unwrapped Yeonjun from the swaddle and handed him to me, showing me how to hold him.
Hand under head and bottom, with him leaning against my chest. While I held him Lee Know reached out to undo the top of my dress, I flinched away, I could feel my body heat up at the thought of him seeing that part of me. But he gave me a reassuring nod in response, and considering my hands were full, I just nodded, feeling very nervous and very awkward.

My itty bitty tiddy peeked out, and almost immediately Yeonjun latched on and began suckling. I gasped in amazement, showing it off how automatically and natural it was, he chuckled in amusement. Petting my hair gently.
"Cute." Was all he said.

We were in the bathroom for what felt like forever as Yeonjun sucked and sucked away, just as when I was about to fall asleep right there, my dangling feet scooting closer and closer to the floor. A knock on the door startled me awake, making Lee Know have to catch me.
"Who is it?"he called out.

"I.N.! Um, we have a little problem."

"Solve it yourself." Lee Know called back.

"It's about the Cubs--"

In a blink of an eye I busted the door open, causing Yeonjun to jump and stop drinking, which led to loud crying. But my nerves were on high. I.N. jumped back from the door, with wide eyes at my tiddy hanging loose out of my gown before his lip curled in disgust as he looked from me to Lee Know.

"Wait what's wrong with the cubs?!" I caught I.N.'s shoulder, he rolled his eyes for a second, then led us outside.

And what I saw was a horrific sight.

I really just wanna publish everything like BAM BAM BAM but I also wanna build suspense.... I'm so conflicted 😖