Secrets Of His Origins / a Damian Wayne story

~5~ Am I? ~

Present time 

Damian was standing there, with his fellow teammates, he figured out who the woman was; he stopped breathing normally; he wasn't hearing anything, all he could feel was the pain he felt four years ago, no he has been feeling this pain since...

Birth...

His heart was beating too fast. His face was pale and blank. No emotion except fear and pain were clear in his expression. Damian was having a panic attack.

The first to realize was Conner, who heard his heart beating faster than the flash himself, and Raven who felt the emotions rising as strong as a piercing sword.

The two titans both looked at the source of the disruption, it was Damian. Which, for sure, they didn't expect it.

To tell it worried the two for their teammate was an understatement.

Raven couldn't stand the emotions of pain, regret, sadness, fear... every bad feeling you could imagine. She didn't know what to do.

Conner, on the other hand, did not understand what was happening. Even though he never showed it, but Damian was part of this team and he cared about him. And seeing the strongest and toughest people you know, so pale... and so scared, creeps the hell out of him.

Damian remembered her last words...

Damian's POV

"You aren't my son, everyone hates you, like I do. You are a weapon, I made you to be used, not to be loved. Remember this Damian, you are the actual monster"

You are the actual monster...

No! I am a hero!... Am I?

You are a weapon...

No.. no I am not... am I?

Everyone hates you...

They love me!  .... Do they?

I made you to be used not to be loved...

That's... that's not true.. is it? 

I feel like I am lost... lost in nowhere,

Where am I?

I feel the voices of my friends- Teammates but I can't hear them...

It feels like I am drowning... drowning in my memories. As if they were the ocean, the ocean were I drown to death.

The memories I have always wished to forget.

Those memories were killing me from inside.

Breaking me from outside...

If only I could stop it.

But I simply can't. It's like trying to fly... but in the end you will fall... because simply,
Humans can't fly. And I can't forget...

And here she is the cause of all my pain, alive, killing twenties of police officers. Destroying buildings and killing thousands of people... innocent people.

And now... I have to face her...

Which also means I will have to face my greatest fear...

My past.


Raven's POV

I didn't know what to do, so I told Kori who immediately stopped the recording, which gained the other titans attention.

"wait what? why did you stop it I was trying to understand what was happening!" Gar complained.

"same here I was so close in understanding," Donna gave a sad face

"Raven told me she felt someone's emotion-" Kori was cut off, when Damian fell on his knees.

"Damian! are you ok?" Dick asked concerned for his little brother. Damian didn't answer, he couldn't hear anything. Then Conner realized something.

"guys he is not breathing!"  he yelled, Richard kneeled down in front of him. 

"Dami can you hear me?" He asked. But Damian didn't answer. His face was blank no emotion, except for the fact that he wasn't breathing nor hearing anything. 

The titans were panicking, their teammate- friend was sitting on the floor, not breathing, not hearing, and heart beating too fast.

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So chapter 5! what do you think? 

what will happen to Damian? 

for those who don't know: Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a disorder that develops in some people who have experienced a shocking, scary, or dangerous event.