I sat on my bed just looking into space. I know I should be up and getting ready for the funeral but I just can't move.
I haven't even been able to take care of Daniel that well and I'm ashamed.
I should be doing my best at taking care of Daniel because not only is he my son but he's the last thing I have of Paul.
"Come on Sarah get ready" Alice said coming in with Bella and rose. "I am getting ready" I tell her and she sighs " I mean getting dressed" she said
"Well I have to get mentally prepared before I get physically ready" I tell her and she go in my closet and I see Paul's clothes in there. I start crying. Bella comes over and pull me to her. I hold on to her and cry on her shoulder. Alice gets my clothes out and lays them on the bed beside me.
She then leaves out along with rose. "You can do this Sarah" Bella said and left out to. I sigh and put the dress on and look and see a jacket on the chair. I walk over and pick it up and hold it to me as it belonged to Paul. I decided to put it on over my dress.
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They had brought me back Paul's wedding ring and I put it on a chain and let Daniel wear it. He should be able to anyway.
I walk out the room and downstairs and everyone stands up and look at me.
Emmett helps me down the last steps and side hug me. I then walk to rose and grab Daniel. I then walk out to the car and get in the back with Daniel as my dad and mom was in the front. I think even though Daniel is young he knows that Paul is gone. He don't play around a lot anymore or talk as much. He's gone mute and I sorta did to.
We arrived at the funeral and I see his mother. I walk over to her with Daniel and hug her. She cries into my shoulder and I hold her.
We then go take a seat in the front.
I don't even look at Paul's coffin.
I can't because if I do this whole place is coming down. We had just got our happy ever after and it was gone,taken away just like that.
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It seems I'm crying almost everyday.
The funeral passes by me in a second. I didn't even notice it was over till emmett helped me up. I didn't even notice that we was back home.
I just sat in the window with Daniel on my lap looking out into the forest.
It's weird. I can see and hear even smell Paul everywhere. But I can't touch him I can't feel him like I used to.
