🌈⭐️Love Maze🌈⭐️

Daniel

To Daniel S,

I am not sure how to start this, should I start with a "Hello" or a "How are you doing?". I will just start with a simple thank you, thank you for being my friend since the middle of 7th grade, thank you for being my first"boyfriend" even though I felt like it was not real because it was not, and lastly thank you for being there for me when I was not. You have been the greatest friend one could ask for. Even though when we had to switch to online school for the rest of our senior year we kind of disconnected from each other. I have not told anyone this, but I have felt depressed over the months in where this pandemic has started, I have not told you or anyone else because I was not sure how my family and friends would feel.

Even before this pandemic started I was depressed. When we used to go to school, you would always see me with a smile on my face ready to face the school day and anything that I was faced with. But I was not, on some days I would grow moody and depressed over many things, but I always faced the front and should someone that I was not. Honestly, if I told you, you would be the type of person to cheer me up or do anything in his power to get rid of my depression.

I have missed you, honestly, I have missed all my friends, but I have missed you the most, you are such a good friend and that is why I have gained feelings for you. You know me probably better than I know me, which is not a bad thing, but it shows how observant you are when it comes to knowing your friends. We disconnected for a short while only texting each other for a week and not texting each other for about a month which is a stretch. We texted each other on New years eve and we talked for quite a while, you brought up that we should make a promise to talk more like friends and if possible hang out with each other. You know the funniest thing happened to me; I was in Sam's the day before Christmas Eve and I swear I saw you; I was not sure if it was you, but I noticed the shirt "you" were wearing to be one of the shirts you wore back in high school. I was not about to go up to "you" because you were buying some type of jewelry piece, I would have been nervous if "you" came up to me because I would not know what to say.

I feel as if in high school your feelings for me came back. I remember in some instances you made comments of things I said sort of flirting with me but honestly I did not mind because I knew you well enough of how you think and how you say things spontaneously. Remember our first homecoming together? Well, it was supposed to be as friends because we were going with one other friend but sadly she had to cancel on us. In the end, we both went together; I never went to a type of dance before with a boy and it kind of felt like a date of some sort. I am pretty sure that we both felt the same way you with your dress shirt and tie and me with a surprising dress. We both have never seen each other with anything other than a shirt and jeans, so the fact that we were all dressed up was shocking.

Thank you for being there with me that night, I truly had fun. I have never been to a party, you on the other hand have. You've told me that on Super Bowl Sunday you and your friends had a plan to jump roof to roof. You were the only one who did, when you message me that, I felt my heart drop. Going back to the party thing, you told me that since I've never been to a party that you were going to take me to a party once things smoothed down. I will be awaiting for that party. I have so much more to say to you but this is as much as I will write.

Always and forever you're "middle school girlfriend."

Love,
Ashley