50 shades of sebastian stan

Part 21: the talk

Ah shit here we go

"You were sober?" I ask quietly
"No but i was sober enough to remember most of it" he said still pissed off
"Yeah i meant it..." i sigh
"All of it?" He came and sat next to me on my bed
I just nod and let out a sigh
"I'm sorry y/n.. i can't even admit to having feelings... i don't know how i feel, ever since my first... i've never wanted to fall for people again so i shut myself off i shut off whatever emotions i felt for people and i dont want to turn it back on because i always end up hurt. So i'm sorry y/n, i cant be with you i can't be the boyfriend you want.. i'm just incapable of doing that... i hire women to help with sexual stuff so i still get everything i need but i dont have to deal with the emotions." He stands up from where he was sat

"You'll find someone who will love you and care for you in ways i cant. I'm sorry y/n..." and with that he gets up and walks out my bedroom.

He spilled his heart out and apologised i know he has some type of emotion there clearly but i can be hung up on a man who doesn't even want me. So from now on. Im moving on.

I take a deep breath and head out of my room, i see anthony, tom and chris

"Um sebastian left" chris says standing awkwardly at the kitchen counter
"I know"
"Why?" Anthony asks
"We spoke about the truth and he thought it was right to leave" i sigh
"So you didn't get together?" Tom asks while raiding my fridge for food
"Nope. Both decided if its best to move on. So if any of you have any extremely hot friends that you don't mind sending my way it would be much appreciated"
"So are you wanting to piss him off and get him back or move on and find a forever new person?" Chris asks walking round the counter to sit on the couch with anthony
"I dont know... i know he'll never want me. But i dont wanna jump into someone without them knowing that i still have feelings for someone else. So maybe for now. A date to the premier if im still invited and maybe if that goes well a second date. But since its a premier i dont want it to be any randomer who could be a gold digger"
"Then it's settled you'll be my date" tom smiles
"I think not.. what happened to you and zendeya?"
"She wont mind me taking someone else"
"No you take her ill just go with someone else" i laugh knowing i actually wanna meet zendaya
"Ill take you?" Chris asks kinda nervously
"Dont you already have a date?"
"Noo i usually wait last minute and if i still havent found anyone id take my mom" he chuckles
"Aw what a cutie, mommas boy" i giggle "but it'd be my honour to join you... any colour choice?"
"Well i was thinking blue? But its up to you" he smiles
"Blues fine i'll have to be on the lookout for a dress" i smile getting all excited for the premier which is in less than a week.

That day we all chilled out, got takeout then watched movies, they ended up crashing again and i spent most the night looking for a dress when i found the perfect one.... i am so ready to blow everyones minds.