ETERNAL SUNSHINE - Jhope ff

13 - Failed brother

*Jimin's pov*

Everyday I wake up to the memories of us playing happily, contented with our lives.. Back then if we knew that our lives would be so messed up we wouldn't have grown up, I shouldn't have left her, I should've taken care of both of them, why was I so selfish? Does she really not hate me? Now that I've got a second chance I won't let it slip, I will take care of her and support her from now on

I can't lose her also...

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"Oppa, don't cry, there's nothing that you can do, It is not your fault that we can't afford it" she held my hand, her voice so pale and soft "NO! I'm supposed to take care of you, please just hold on for a little more, I'll do something.. jebal!!" I scream as she's being taken into the ICU

I wandered around the streets searching for help, someone or something to help cure her, eyes filled with tears of pain, helplessness.. my heart sinking deeper as each minute passes by, kneeling down to people, begging for them to help me, the little amount they gave had great value, some felt pity for me , some thought I was crazy.. Can't blame them, I was running around the streets like a maniac begging people for help, I didn't know what to do, I was just a 11 year old homeless boy, Only if our father didn't leave us... I had got half of the money from those kind hearted people

I reached the hospital reception to pay settle the money "Here, there's half the money and the rest I'll somehow pay" I pant as I hand the receptionist the money "We.. we're sorry.. your sister couldn't hold on for any longer, we tried performing the surgery but her heart was too weak" I stand there in a frozen state, tears overflowing "ANDWAE!" I rushed to the ICU.. only to see my precious little girl dead and pale.. the nurses let me see my sister for one last time.. "Yah! Why didn't you wait for me? My little girl.. I'm sorry, sorry for not being strong brother, Jieun-ah.. plea-se don't lea-ve me, what am I gonna do without you? please wake up, please smile, please... talk to me.. PLEASE!!!!!!!"

I held onto her lifeless body, my sister, the only family I had, why does It have to be her? God, why didn't you take me instead? Out of all the bad people out there, why my little sister? what did she do wrong? "She told me to give you this.. If this ever happened" the halmeoni who shared the room with my sister placed an envelope in my hand "God must've really liked her that's why he took her, atleast.. she won't have to suffer anymore" she hugged me trying to comfort me.. I stayed in her embrace while the nurses took away my sister's cold and pale body

I managed to open the envelope.. It had a childhood picture of us three, my Jieun.. smiling happily like the angel she was... under it was a caption "our little family" beneath it was a letter, I opened it to see her beautiful handwriting, the tear stains on my cheeks were covered with new tears flowing down my cheeks when I read her letter

Dear Jiminie oppa,

Oppa, if you get this letter then it means I'm already gone but please don't worry, I'm happy now that you won't have to suffer, I won't have to suffer the pain, you can now lead a happy life now that I won't be a burden to you, But please do not forget me, please do remember me as your little angel, I guess I'm god's favorite that's why he called me to be one of his angels, Now I'll be the one taking care of you from above,

I'm lucky I got to see you before my death, Oppa you've done so much for me, you've done all that you could do but one can never defy their fate, My only worry is that I couldn't see her one last time but I'm sure she misses me, I really hoped for a family together but maybe I was to protect you both from above,

Oppa, I'm really thankful to you, when father left you took care of me, you supported me, I wish I could've stayed longer.. And please don't do anything stupid, don't follow me, live your life.. Can I ask you one last favor? I want to see you live your life to the fullest, become successful and if you find her, help her like you've helped me.

I'm not gone, I'll stay by your side, protecting you, supporting you, loving you.

Saranghae 🤍

- Your little angel

Jieunnie

I wanted to end my life so that I'll meet Jieun and we would be together but she asked me to continue with my life, she might be my little sister but.. she is more mature than me, I will surely miss you Jieun-ah and no, I'll never forget you.. I promise.

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It's been 12 years now, the two things that kept me going are my promise to Jieun and because I've been taking care of that halmeoni's grandson who's mother left him because he was a burden to her, Halmeoni died a few years after Jieun, I'm still living my life like how Jieun had asked me to, I have a company of my own, I'm living a successful life but.. I'm very lonely, I hope she's watching me from above, I visit her grave often, now that I've found Sohee she must be really happy, Jieun-ah.. I miss you.