Making it together

Chapter 19

Chapter 19 Taylor’s POV

I’m in state of blackness.

I can’t hear or see anything.

I don’t know where I am.

I see a soft bright light and walk towards it. This can’t be my end. It can’t be! I have to get back to Zack, Lily, Dean, my parents, my friends. I can’t go now. I fight hard but I am pulled towards the light.

The light is blinding. Shining into my eyes. I can't see anything beyond. Everything is disorientated. I try and get a grip on the ground but the force is to strong. I am dragged helplessly to the unknown light.

When I reach the the light I realize I’m not dead. I am in some strange unknown limbo. I look around trying to find something different but everything is white walls, white floors and and white ceiling.

I walk to the end of the room. I slam my hand against the walk “Let me out! I want to go back.” I keep slamming against the wall but nothing happened. I smash my hands against the walls. My fingers start to shead blood and purple mark appear. I bang hard tossing my head a using my whole body weight to push against the wall but nothing breaks. Not even a dint. My body is beat up and damaged, but the wall looks perfectly fine.

I give up and slide down the wall and hold my head in my hands. I begin to sob. I want to get out of here. This is not what I wanted. I want to be with my boyfriend and my family. All I can do is cry. I can't be strong. I can't suck it up or hold it in. It's too hard.

“Honey.” I look up and see Susan, Zack’s mum. She looks the same. She's in a white robe. Her golden hair flowing down past her shoulders. Her skin is radiant and fresh, unlike the last time I saw her. I run over and elope her in a tight hug. “Honey, don’t cry. Okay. You will be back out of here soon. Your body needs to rest. I am here to make sure you’re okay for now.” She sits me down on a floor with Susan. She wraps her arms around me and holds me tight. She used to do this when I was sad and at her house.

“I am so proud of both of you. You have done so much while looking after my baby and I want to thank you. You are both still teenagers and look after a three year old little girl. But you Taylor, you show her unconditional love that is only show by family. I love you for that. You have taught her about me and made sure she knows I love her. Everyday she wears my necklace everyday thanks to you. She talks to me when she’s upset because you told her to. I know that without you and your beautiful parents Zack and Lily wouldn’t be in such a good state. I love you for looking after them. I know Zack is a handful at times.” I laugh but am still crying. I hug her tightly. She kisses my forehead and hugs me back.

“Thank you mama, (We always called each others parents some form of Mum and Dad) I love you too. I miss you so much. I definitely miss those hot chocolates and your too tight hugs.” She laughs too.

“I know, I know, but I thought you would be conditioned to it with your Mum.” I giggle

“Yeah, yeah I should but I’m not.” We sit there in the white room with nothing. Susan hugs me and talks to me about what we have been doing. She comforts me the whole time making sure I’m happy and tells me when I hear A voice I have to pull towards it.

*****

Susan and I were talking about Zack’s and my career in the music business. “So how’s it going?”

“Well good but I don’t like the massive about of publicity. I like to get my music out there and performing but the constant media attention is annoying.”

“Oh I remember when you both had your first music lessons. You picked the piano so quickly so Zack wanted to learn the guitar he got it but when he let you have a go you understood everything do quickly compared to him. He was a bit angry but always loved you and could never hate you. When he tried to do the piano, I don’t mean to be rude but he sucked at it. You tried your best to help him but he sucked.” I laughed along with her. Thus was probably the first time I have seen Susan be somewhat rude towards anyone.

“So where do you see your relationship going?” She has a massive smile along her face. I know she likes our relationship. When we were younger she would always want us to be together and now when ever we somewhat brought up the topic of being together she would be really happy.

“Well I want to be together for much longer. I love him and I don’t see being with anyone. I don’t know if we were with anyone else I wouldn’t be able to take it. I love him and Lily too. I could not be Just friends again.”

“Oh you are both so cute. You will be together. He loves you so much. I know that for sure.” I hug her. I love being her with her but I want to get out of here. I want to be with Zack, Lily, Dean and my family. I love them all so much and I want to, no need to see them again.

“Taylor, please baby wake up.” I look around and try to find the person.

“I miss you.” I know it’s Zack. I turn to Susan.

“Try and find him, get to him.” I nod and hug her one last time. “I’ll be looking over you all three of you.”

“I want to see your beautiful eyes. I want to look into them and tell you I love you and I want you to reply with the same. I want to hold you and feel better, I know you could always make me feel better. Just your hug, your kiss makes me feel better and I need one, no more than one, I need them the rest of my life. I need you the rest of my life.” I start to cry. I need him. I run around the white room trying to find him. I see a coloured light coming towards me. It's not like the white light before this one holds hope and confidence. I run towards it. I run and run and run until I am knocked out. Everything has stopped but there is anticipation in the air. A sense of belief.

I need to wake up. I try and move my hand, but nothing happens. I try lifting each of my fingers. Thumb? No. Pointer? No. Index? No. Ring finger? No. Pinkie? I try and move it as hard as I can. I can slowly feel it lift. No longer stuck to the sheet. I slowly peal each finger of the sheet. Each one giving more and more movement.

I wake up in a soft bed with warm hand placed on mine. A small smile escapes my lips. My eyelid flutter open. Blinking I try and adjust to the light. I look and see my love hovering over me. Tear stains run down his eyes. I reach up and plant my lips forcefully against his.

These are the soft sweet lips I have missed so much in my time while I was unconscious. His soft lips press against mine warming up my body sending tingles around my body. His arms wrap around my body. He gives me a strong hug. It’s like he doesn’t want me to disappear on him.

“I love you.” I whisper. My voice is hoarse and it pains to speak.

“I love you too baby, I’m never gonna let you leave me again."

Hey world,

I'm gonna try and update ASAP. I have everthing planed out and I'm going back to school on Monday so I won't be able to update again.

Love you all,

Kathy xxx