I had been struggling with anxiety for years now. The year of 2016 did it all to me. I was sleepless, I cried for almost every night, fear was all over me, and I had been through this for years now. The first 2 years of me having my anxiety was all challenging, I never know that I was actually struggling with anxiety so I never voice up to seek help.
I remember crying every night and wake up smiling in the morning. I am very good at masking. I hide all of it for almost 2 years. I never tell anyone about me being restless, about me crying every night and about me having fear that I cannot control, no I never tell it to any person in this world except my God. The only way for me to let it all out was all by praying because all I thought was, God is the only one who can save me.
Now that it had been 4 years of me having this. I started to get more mature, I started to open up to my family and my friends. It never been easy of course, I have panic attack every time and my anxiety will always be there even if I thought I already healed from it.
What I wanted to say to my people, to those who have the same struggling with me, just know that the first step you have to do is accepting that you have this thing but you are not crazy or it is not a sin for you to have it. Second, I would like you to know that you are not alone, because there is someone up there watching for you every seconds, He is protecting you. Last but not least, no one can heal this thing, no one ever in this world, not even the best psychologist, so if you are searching for shelter, searching for healing, look up, there is a way, God is waiting with His open arm, you just have to start open up your heart and your steps to Him and with that, you will heal, we will all heal, and that is my faith on us.
