*~Play "Over The Pond" by "The Album Leaf" Hinata's point of view (POV) *~
I woke up exhausted to my sister, Natsu, screaming at my mom that she wanted pancakes for breakfast. The sun was shining through the window above my bed, the air was cold, but nothing out of the usual. My eyes were tired and I just wanted to take a nap, I barely slept...
I immediately after took my phone from the table, stressed, and checked if Kageyama had sent me any messages, he didn't... The only messages I got were from the Karasuno group-chat and a message from Sugawara:
Sugawara: "Hey Hinata! Are you okay? You haven't been your usual talkative self lately... If something's wrong, you know you can tell me, right? :)"
Of course he was worried about me, I would usually be the talkative one in the group-chat, but after Kageyama and all, I couldn't care about anything else but him... My mind was filled with thought of what could have happened if I hadn't followed him that day, or worse-... I tried shoving these thoughts away, but failed. I decided to texted Sugawara back:
Hinata: "Yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry about it!! ♡'･ᴗ･'♡"
"These emojis are the cutest! I can't stop using them!" I thought as I let a small giggle escape my mouth while turning off my phone and getting ready for school. I couldn't help but think about everything he said yesterday, it was stuck in my mind like a boomerang: doesn't matter how many times you throw it away, it will always come back... I repeated the things he said to me yesterday with the full knowledge of how it affects me: it made me feel like I was losing mind...
*~Flash back - Hinata's point of view (POV)*~
"HINATA, YOU WOULD NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW I AM FEELING, AND YOU CAN'T HELP ME!! YOU ACT LIKE YOU'RE EVERYONE'S SUNSHINE AND I HATE IT, YOU'VE ALWAYS HAD IT ALL, IT'S NOT FAIR!! DON'T I DESERVE A HAPPY LIFE LIKE YOU...?" Kageyama's tone started to get quieter and quieter... "I just want it all to end... It's so painful... Please, Hinata... Make it all stop.. Make it all go away.." Kageyama sounded desperate, he was begging... At that moment, Tobio's eyes looked lifeless, he was begging for Hinata to save him, or...
it will be his end..
The ginger then snapped back to reality "What if I fail? What if he tries to-..? I can't risk that happening, I can't lose him... If I lose him, I'll lose my mind-" My thoughts were quickly interrupted by my father yelling at me from the kitchen that breakfast was ready, I didn't feel like eating, not today at least... "I am not hungry, sorry.." I said in a cheery voice, trying to sound as truthful as possible.
"Okay, but don't forget to eat at school!" My mom said as she was waving at me, wishing me to have a good day, I appreciated it and waved back as I was walking out the door with my school bag on my back. I checked the time and realized I might be late so I started running towards the gym at full speed. I arrived at the gym safely, "I am not late, thank god" I thought to myself as my eyes were searched for Kageyama. Tanaka noticed and told me he was changing in the storage room, I noticed him and gave him a big smile trying to cheer him up a little, but I can tell he didn't buy it.
*~Kageyama point of view (POV)*~
I had finally finished changing as I noticed Hinata walking in the storage, he looked terrible: his big brown eyes had lost their spark, his hair was messy and unclean, and he had black circles under his eyes, like he hadn't slept for years. He looked stressed and on- edge all the time. He noticed I was staring at him, so he smiled with his big bright smile, everyone else would buy it, but I didn't, it was too obvious he was still worried about yesterday... It made me regret ever telling him anything in the first place... Because look where we are now! He's barely functioning. Was I that desperate for closure? Damn.." I thought as I gave Hinata a "I don't buy it" glare while walking out of the storage feeling unsatisfied with my actions, but I didn't say a thing to him.. Practice was horrible, my sets were off and so were Hinata's spikes: We were both busy day-dreaming about about the other's health, and of course, blaming ourselves, I can't imagine how irritating it must have been to watch us, I can't blame them for taking us out of the game only this practice... After sitting on the fence, the gym went quiet, at least that's how I felt... But it was the kind if silence where the two people want to say something, but don't say it.. Finally, Hinata spoke:
"Let me come to your house today after school"
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Author's note:
Hear me out, I wrote this at 4 AM. I'll be uploading the next chapter tomorrow immediately AND TRUST ME, NEXT CHAPTER IS GONNA BE SPICY (not smut or lemon, DON'T WORRY) please don't drop the story after this chapter because it's a little boring, I'm just paying a lot of time into building the characters, and this is the price to pay 😭😭 please stay tuned, love you ❤ and sorry if I disappointed any of y'all, and sorry for the short chapter 🙏🙏
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