The Beginning and End of Everything (AYS #1)

Chapter 15

I stare at Bree, I feel like I've been hit by a bus.

"Are you okay?"

I can't make out who said it, there's a ringing in my ears, I can feel my hands start to shake and then I feel Micah wrap his arms around me.

"I need... I've gotta go..."

I run out of the room and just sit there. The guy I loved for years and the woman who was supposed to always put me first are having a baby and getting married.

Micah comes in, pulls me into his arms and just holds me.

"Bree said the wedding is next week. And wants to know if you wanna go so she can get the ticket."

I just cry into his arms and he holds me, it seems like hours when he finally convinces me to get out of the floor.

"I'll go. Just so I can get it over with."
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1 week later

We step out of the uber in front of my mom's house and it almost seems foreign.

Micah comes behind me and rubs my shoulders, "you ready?"

I shake my head and start walking anyway, "I'm not. But lets just get it over."

We come up on the porch behind Bree and Matt; Will answers the door, my heart drops into my chest.

"Hey. Come on in. Rocky is in the kitchen."

He smiles at me as if nothing ever happened. I grab onto Micah and almost scream at how furious it all makes me.

"Its okay, baby. It'll all be fine." Micah whispers in my ear and we walk into the kitchen.

Mom comes around and hugs us all. She looks at me with pity and then looks over at Bree and Matt.

"Why dont you guys go show Micah? Was it? To Alexis' room. I wanna chat with her a minute."

I just glare at her as they walk out and Will comes up behind her, "what? What could you possibly wanna say? What could you possibly say? That youre sorry? That you wish it wouldn't have happened the way it did? That you didnt mean to have sex with MY boyfriend? Who I had been with 4 years?! What could you possibly say? That would make any of this any better?"

"Honey..."

"No. You lost the right to refer to me as anything except Alexis. You aren't my mother. Youre a miserable whore who is having a baby, with the same person I was. You get to have his baby, but I had to abort the one he gave me. Was that your plan? Because of you, I uprooted my life because i found out, 4 weeks after you forced me to abort my baby, that you were sleeping with my baby's father. Youre a bitch. You're not a mother, you just happened to give birth to me. I hope to god this one aint a girl. Cause you'd probably ruin her life like you did mine. Like you did with Bree. Like you did with Dad. You ruin everything."

"Okay. Stop. Your mom didnt make the first move. I did. So if you want to start on someone, start on me."

"Oh. I was planning on it. What was I? An excuse so you could bang my mom? Just the slut you screwed when your mommy issues weren't acting up? Out of everyone, you chose to cheat on me with my mother. No ots not her fault. Its both. And while you're raising this child. I hope you constantly feel the guilt of knowing that the woman whose carrying your child, is a terrible mother, a terrible person and has forced every single person in her life to miserable. She left my dad in the middle of a battle with cancer that killed him because it was too much. You started dating me right as that happened. She forced her child to have an abortion while sleeping with that child's boyfriend. I hope you're both happy. I hope its all rainbows and sunshine. And I hopw to God that this baby never has to be told that its an abomination because if it likes the same sex or if it gets pregnant young. But it can be tour replacement child. Because as far as I'm concerned, both of you are dead to me. I don't ever want to see you either one again. And I hope you both burn in hell for everything you put me through."

I walk up to my room, leaving my mom crying and Will comforting her. When I get back, Micah grabs my hand.

"She made you get an abortion?"

I nod my head, "she didn't make me. But she convinced me that I was making a mistake wanting to keep it. She said it was because she didn't see Will wanting to be a dad so early. At least now I know why."

He hugs me, "I'm so sorry..."

"You should apologize to your mom. You really hurt her."

I turn around and glare at Will, "she never apologized for hurting me. She just flaunts you around in my face, like you were hers all along."

"Lex... I didnt mean to fall your mom. It just happened."

"You just happened to wander into my mom's bed and have sex with her? Let me guess, your phone glitched and sent the naked pictures to her? You accidentally fell into her vagina and somehow impregnated her? You just so happened to be sleeping with both of us and you love her and this bahy so much. But you don't even seem to feel any bit of pain or anything about the fact that I told you I had an abortion because of her."

"Lex."

"Just shut up. Enjoy your wedding, enjoy your kid. Im gonna leave so I don't kill either of you. C'mon Micah."

I grab our bags and smile, "oh and you can inform my mother, that I'm leaving."

Micah and I uber out to the airport and get on the first available flight back home.

When we get there he pulls me into his arms and just holds me, he understands and he just holds me.