unmendable ⍟ jaemin

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" what do you think of this plan? "

" great, we can put it in action, it might be over in a month, or two at most. "

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" do you think everything would go well? " y/n questioned the constantly smiling boy.

shotaro provided a comforting smile for her, " you have the dreamies and us to back you up what's there to worry? " y/n figured that the ' us ' referred to him and sungchan, both of them had small missions like going for drug deals or just helping the older guys as backup.

the fear of getting left behind as a gang member with less experience kept making her feel suffocated, her hands itched to give herself pain again as negative thoughts and self directed hatred flooded her brain. at that moment she almost couldn't retain herself , she just needed something to get it off her mind or rather...

" jaemin, wheres jaemin? "

" in his room i guess? whats - " shotaro hadn't had the chance to complete his sentence when y/n left with a word of thanks, " wrong...? "

" jaemin's her only cure huh? " jeno appeared out of nowhere, a canned drink in his hand as he casually took a sip out of it, " it's something both of us could never feel. "

" don't you love your cats? "

shotaro almost got slapped.

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it was a rather weird timing when y/n went to find jaemin, jaemin blankly gazing at the ceiling as he pondered over his reason for existence, his weightless arms stretched out in front of him. y/n on the other hand was almost tearing up as she swung the door open.

he jolt in surprise at the noise, recognising the figure at the door almost immediately. his expression turned from a blank one to a frown, " y/n? whats wrong? are you crying? "

it felt weird, like a movie.

jaemin got up and approached the female, his hand reached to pull her closer to him without a second thought, his arms wrapping around her frame to provide some sort of comfort.

" jaemin... am i useless? " her voice came out mumbled, like a small child who was lost, " am i not doing enough for the gang? "

" what makes you say that? " he felt the first few drops of tears on his back.

" i spent so many months training yet i still haven't done anything for the gang... i spent months getting over my fear of the sound of a gunshot, i have not even helped in any small missions... and i... and i... " she mumbled something incoherent, small little sniffles could be heard.

he let his hand gently stroked the back of her head, " you're doing something for the gang right now aren't you? you're doing great, don't let anything else tell you otherwise. "

" that time when you got shot when it should have been me, i couldn't have thanked and apologised enough. " his significantly bigger hands cupping her cheeks as he used his pad of his thumb to wipe her tears away, " so don't feel guilty about anything okay? "

jaemin's eyes seemed somewhat different as they held eye contact, the eyes that stared so deeply into her soul were unlike the cold ones. she felt as if she was just an open book in front if him, all her struggles, pain, misery, he could see it all. the eyes that held the entrance to her happiness, the ones that watched over her like a guardian angel when she was young.

he neared her, his heart seemed to be beating faster than usual as dipping his head down slightly to place a kiss on her lips. unlike the kind of passionate heated kiss always shown in movies, his soft lips met hers in a innocent and gentle kiss, pulling away as a slight blush crept up both their cheeks.

" what... was that about. "

" i love you, " of course he had to let that slip out of his mouth.

y/n replied with a blank stare, the words entering her ear seemed to not make any sense at all.

" no, wait, what, eh, " jaemin pressed his palm against his forehead as he racked his brain to cover up his previous sentence, " no i mean, i love your lips. "

" EH?? "

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" how's your computer science teacher like? " y/n threw a seemingly harmless question.

" hmm, he's chill i guess? there's nothing special about him, just that his skills are... "

" astonishing, extraordinary, unreal, " soojin cut across sakura's words, " he knows everything, anything. "

sakura nodded in agreement, " it's almost scary! "

by now, y/n had figured what he does in the gang.

it was the fifth day after she enrolled into the school. y/n had been getting closer to the two other ladies just for the sake of digging some sort of valuable information out of them and she couldn't be more thankful at this point that sakura and soojin were a pair who loved to gossip.

the awkward atmosphere around jaemin and y/n was something both of them tried to ignore. afterall, they had been spending more time together and awkwardness wasn't something both if them could handle.

chenle had been getting noisier day by day, constantly shouting out random questions during lessons which was of somewhat relevance to the lesson.

she wasn't sure if it was to agitate that gang member playing as teacher or purely for the intent to distract him from jisung who slipped in and out of class, something that was quite convenient since he sat by the back door.

dino, well, had been hearing some past stories about those two teachers and some of them ended up being quite useful to their plans too.

generally, y/n felt that everything was going well. perhaps she could even say that it was going abit too well, like how calm everything is before a storm.

or was it just her overthinking?

↳ i'm going to stop publishing more chapters on this book becos my brain is dry asf and i cant think of more ideas :/
im so sorry :(

sike
jk
happy april fools :)
anyways, they kissed :D
not so cheesy
but yay （＾ν＾）
my motivation these days are like 📈📉📉📈