Until I met him

His words

"Baby can i see your drawing?"He asks me kissing my cheek.i nod and show him the drawing.

                                                          (Ignore the fact it's Draco and Harry lol)

"i love it! you're so talented y/n,"He says and kisses me.We start making out and things start to go farther.He tries to take my shirt off and i let him.Suddenly i feel weird and Draco becomes Cedric and all i see is Cedric forcing me to do all those terrible things he did to me.I can hear him calling me ugly,a slut,unwanted and telling me to kill myself.Tears start streaming down my cheeks and i keep yelling "Stop!","please don't do this!","Let me go!!" or "Just don't hurt him,please!".I come back to reality to see my shirt off but in a corner crying while Draco looks at me sad,worried and confused.After a few minutes Draco walks over to me and sits next to me but still giving me space while i cry into my knees not noticing him there.He goes to hug me and i flinch at first but then i hug back and cry into his arms.After a while of sitting there cuddling on the floor and my crying while every once in a while he would kiss my head and telling me he would never hurt me and that it would be okay.We stand up and i quickly put my shirt on and luckily he didn't see my cuts and scars.We sit on the bed looking.I can feel his worried eyes on me while i play with my fingers."I-i'm sorry."I say nervously."Y/n you have nothing to be sorry for,do you want to tell me what happened?"He says rubbing my back."I would..but i can't,i'm sorry but if i do something bad will happen."I say finally finding the courage to look at him."Darling,i promise you'll be okay.If you tell me what's going on i can help you."He responds while running his hands through my hair which made me calm down a little."I can't say who but..someone has been raping me..he forces me to do so many things i don't want to do and he calls me so many things i-"I try and say through tears but Draco stops me from saying anything else."How long has this been going on?!"He shouts trying to be calm but failing.I flinch at his yell.I have always hated being yelled at or hearing it.My parents used to fight a lot and my dad would hit my mom sometimes when he got drunk.He loved her but he couldn't control himself sometimes.He used to hit me too but it's okay,maybe i deserve it.I deserve all the things Cedric did to me."I- um maybe a few months.."I say through burning tears that were silently falling down my cheeks.They just kept coming and coming no matter how many times i tried to make them stop."Why didn't you just tell me! All this could have been fixed a long time ago!"He yells louder waling closer to me."I'm sorry,please don't hurt me.."I say quietly backing up scared.He softens again and stops,his face calming.He looks at my face and sees the fear in my eyes.Draco looks at himself as if hes scared of himself and disappointed."I'm so sorry y/n,i don't know what came over me.I'm so stupid i-i just want to help i would never want something like that to happen to you."He says backing away.I have this feeling that i know he wouldn't do that so i calm down and try to hug him.He backs away from the hug trying to stay away from me.I frown."Draco it's okay i know you would never hurt me."I calmly say trying to hug him again.He backs away again."y/n i don't want to hurt you..I can't do this.I can't risk hurting you anymore.I think it's best if we take a break.."He says looking scared of himself."N-no you can't do this.I know you would never hurt me! Please don't leave me.I love you."I say crying."I'm sorry Y/n."He says as he packs his bags.We leave to go to Hogwarts today and it was already 8 in the morning.He leaves with his bags after getting dressed.I fall to my knees crying.After what felt like forever i pack my bags and get dressed.I secretly put my favorite hoodie of his inside my trunk.I splash water on my face and put my hair in a really messy bun.There are big dark circles under my eyes and they were red and puffy.I change my clothes and walk out of his room trying not to cry.

Outfit:

Then i walk down the stairs trying not to seem upset.I hug Narcissa."Bye Narcissa it was so nice meeting you!"I say happily.His Mom treated me so kindly,I was going to miss her a lot.I shake hands with his father.He smiles at me so i awkwardly smile back."Pleasure to meet you y/n."He says firmly.I nod."you too."I was going to miss this family.I leave and get on the train.I pass Draco's compartment to see a girl all over him and him all over her.I sigh holding back my tears and sit in a compartment in the back.I put my earbuds in and lean against the window.Suddenly i hear a gentle knock then the door opening."Hey y/n,it's been a while."George says."Mind if we join you?"Fred asks smiling warmly at me.It was impossible to say no to them so i let them in and put my earbuds away."How have you been y/n?"They ask in sync. I loved when they did that,it always made me giggle.I explain everything to them. Except for me cutting and my thoughts,just the Cedric and Draco part.They were like brothers to me so i knew i could trust them.They hug me and make sure i'm okay and order a bunch of candy for us.We talk for a while and i suddenly feel  lot better.I know it won't feel good forever though.We arrive at Hogwarts and I sit at the end of the dining table because Pansy and Blaise were sitting with Draco.Pansy looks at me weird but ignores it.She probably will talk to me later.I don't feel like eating so i just stand up and leave causing Pansy to follow after me.I trusted pansy but i didn't want to ruin her friendship with Draco so i tell myself i won't tell her."Hey y/n!What's up with you?You didn't sit with us and you just walked out."She says hugging me since we haven't seen each other for a while.I hug back of course and laugh a little."Oh sorry i didn't see you guys and i'm not feeling great i was just going to lay down in our dorm."I say trying to sound convincing."Oh okay,get some rest.I'll see you in class on Monday.I'm staying in Blaises dorm this weekend."She says smirking to herself."Oh Merlin!"I say laughing at her.We laugh and hug goodbye."See you Monday,hope you feel better!"She says pulling away from the hug and i smile at her.I go to the library and draw.I feel so broken,like there's nothing to live for anymore.Draco was keeping me here but he doesn't know that.I draw for a few hours and start going into the common room.Someone bumps into me causing me to fall.I look up to see Draco.He puts his hand out but i get up without it."I don't need your filthy hand Malfoy."I say coldly.He rolls his eyes and goes to his dorm.It hurt to be like this to him but i had to act tough.I go to my room and put pajamas on.

Pajamas:

I find a spell to cover my cuts. (it doesn't last long so it will be used rarely)

I walk down the stairs and sit on the couch in front of the fire.I just sit here and watch the fire.A girl walks in and sits next to me.She had black hair and green eyes.She was really pretty and looked friendly."Hi i'm Jules."She says smiling at me."I'm y/n."I say smiling back shaking her hand.We start talking for hours and become close.She's really chill and very kind."So any crushes?"She asks smirking at me."Well there was one boy i loved,Draco Malfoy but we broke up."I say sadly."Damn girl."She says and we both laugh."It's fine i'm getting over it."I say though that wasn't true."What about you?"I ask curiously."Oh i actually have a girlfriend!"She says happily."Oh cool!What's her name?"i ask smiling."Her name is River.She's also a Slytherin but she's not coming back until Monday."She says."cool."i say.We talk for a long time."It's really late i'm gonna go to bed.See you Tomorrow?"She says.I nod my head and we hug goodnight.I go up to bed and get no sleep thinking of Cedric,his words and Draco.