I Was Not Ment To Break

Venting

I had to vent to someone

I was so angry at mum

I had so much resentment

Towards her

To her I was not important

To her I was just the help

I phoned Masie as soon as

I got to my room that night

I was close to tears

I wasn't forming proper sentences

Masie was the only one who

Could translate my words

Masie picked up on the first ring

I didn't give her a chance to say

Hello before I started unloading

My problems onto her

I started at the beginning

How mum wanted to know

What I wanted to do for my

Birthday

How I had made a little folder

Together for mum to read

How I left the folder on the

Coffee table while I went to

Make the tea

And how mum went back

On her word all for a client

Masie tried to tell me I

Was important to mum

I told Masie that's not true

Any more

I was only turning eighteen once

Didn't mum want to celebrate that

Didn't mum want to celebrate all I

Have accomplished over the years

I am her firstborn after all

Masie told me she would be

More than happy to take the triplets

And I to the pier

Dad had already offered

Which was nice he even

Said he would take the day

Off but what was the point

I wanted to go as a family

Without mum, it wouldn't

Have felt right