➯ 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐒𝐖𝐀𝐍 -〚𝒀𝑶𝑰 𝒙 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓〛

➯ ʀᴏsᴛᴇʟᴇϲᴏᴍ ϲᴜᴘ !! 𝙪𝙣𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡

(note: i'm changing up the order that they performed in btw cause it'll make more sense, these are the short programs from episode 8 in case you wanna compare.)

➯𝙫𝙤𝙩𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩!

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i snap open my eyes to hear my phone blasting.

i roll over and answer the call.

i hear minako's voice yell from the other side.

"Y/N!!! DID YOU SEE JJ's PERFORMANCE? oh my god he may be full of himself but he is FINE fine!"

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"huh?"

what does she mean JJ's performance? what time is it?

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN 'HUH!?' oh god y/n... don't tell me you JUST WOKE UP!! it's almost noon in moscow right now! the italian guy, whatever his name is, just started his performance! and yurio is right after! then yuuri!"

i jolt out of bed.

i KNOW i did not just hear her correctly.

i check the time: 11:56 am

"WHAT!? how many people did i miss??"

"so far seung-gil, emil, JJ, and now  you're missing michele."

"SHIT!" i hang up and leap out of bed, frantically getting ready.

why did no one wake me up?? i know i came back late, but not THAT late!! yuuri!! why didn't you wake me up? i will never forgive you for this!

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『𝙮𝙪𝙧𝙞 '𝙨 (𝙮𝙪𝙧𝙞𝙤) 𝙥𝙤𝙫 』

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i stay out of everyone's sight, standing in an empty hallway.

ugh. i'm not feeling agape at all.

there were only two people i could dedicate this performance to...

and right now, neither of them are here.

fuck, how the hell am i supposed to figure out this 'unconditional love'?? cause right now it makes no fucking sense!

i punch the wall.

DAMMIT! WHY CAN'T I JUST UNDERSTAND THIS STUPID CRAP AND BE DONE??

this is so confusing!

my eyes start to sting.

how am i supposed to understand when i'm all alone..?

i turn and slide my back down the wall, sitting on the floor.

i run my hands through my hair, putting my head between my knees.

y/n... where the hell are you?

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"yuri?? where are you! you're on in 3 minutes!" i hear lilia calling for me.

i guess it's time. whether i'm ready or not.

i stand up and make my way to the rink.

maybe she came during that time..? maybe i just didn't see her, and she's hidden in the crowd.