Aurora | ✓

17| Grandfather?

"Because family is forever..."

Tw: mentions of rape

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Aurora

I didn't sleep a wink last night. Not only because nurses were coming in and out every hour, I just couldn't close my eyes.

Rodrigo is here, they had to admit him so his dick wouldn't make him bleed out. What a shame he didn't.

Dad said he was in surgery and wouldn't wake up until tomorrow—today. It's 5am now and I'm still staring at the wall.

I managed to convince my brothers to leave and get some sleep. Dad is snoring on the cot next to me.

Maybe I'll make a princess themed room if she a girl..no, I don't like that. What about giraffes? Yeah I like giraffes. I still feel like it's a boy but my mind tell me it's probably a girl since dad and three of my brothers say so.

I want him or her to be able to choose their own sport when they're older but for now I want him to go to swimming classes and I'm sure dad will teach his grandkid how to surf.

But...what if you lose the baby? What if yesterday was just a scare and tomorrow it'll be real? I can't get that thought out of my head.

"Good morning sunshine, what are you thinking about?" Dad says and yawns

"Hey dad. I think a giraffe themed room would be cute for a girl..OHH what about cats? That's be adorable right?"

"Whatever you decide will be perfect baby, how are you feeling?" He asks

I smile but it quickly fades off. My expression turns serious as dad sits on the bed..

"I'm scared" I say

"What are you scared of baby girl?" Dad asks me

"Of being a bad mom, of not being able to protect my baby, of not being ready for this, of screwing up..but mostly of not getting to have a baby. What if yesterday was pure luck and tomorrow or the day after I truly lose it?" I whisper, struggling to get the words out

My psychologist has told me I need to work on talking about my feelings so that's what I'm trying to do.

"You know...I was 17 too when I found out I was going to be a dad, 18 when Alessandro was born. I thought it would be crazy to have a baby at such a young age, your mom wasn't ready little one. You are. It's not ideal I know, of course you would have wanted to start a family in maybe 5 or 10 years, already married and settled" he says and I nod

"But it wasn't that way, and that doesn't mean it won't be as perfect as you imagined. It can and will be even with the downs of parenting. Will you make mistakes? Of course. Screw up? Hell yeah but it's all part of the learning and growing. You'll see it'll all be worth it baby"

I smile slightly and sigh "You are right...and for the record, I think you will be the best grandpa my baby can have, I'm grateful he or she will have you" I say earning the biggest smile from my dad

"Awwwww" my annoying twin says from the door.

Peace time over...who am I kidding? I freaking love having them here. Annoying as they may be

"How you feeling Amelia?" Quinn says

"Good Arturo, thank you for asking" Yes we're still playing that game.

"Little sister! How's the bun doing?" Sandro asks

"Hey Alec! We're both okay now than you" I answer him feeling chipper now that I have my brothers with me