"Milkyway!" This stranger said and point at the milkyway she saw before clapping her hands
She looks like a kid and i almost lost my shit and laugh but my laugh subsided almost in an instant as a certain thought pass through my mind
Why does she acts so much like her? Her reaction is the same as that first time me and her star gazed
Flash Back~
"Nini, let's go hurry up!! We can't miss that! Ppalli!" I giggled at her as she pulled me to walk faster to my room's balcony
"Wait Lili, calm down!" She giggled with me as we succesfully got in the balcony. She quickly went to the telescope and scanned the night sky, looking for a certain group of star while i just stared at her
"Nini, it's there!!" She point at the milkyway and then clap her hands with a smile. Her eyes sparkles staring at the beautiful stars. She looks so pretty, her smile almost reach her ear and i'm worried that it might hurt later
"Lili, sit down here you big baby!" I playfully called and she seem not to mind. For she sat on the chair beside me
"It's so pretty!" She said with amusement in her voice. She looks so cute, her cheeks pluff as she was pouting at the sky. I giggled at her, she looks so innocent
She avert her eyes on me as she scoot closer to me. She hug my waist while i wrap my arms around her shoulders
"Nini, don't leave me, okay?" She cutely said and i just nod
"Pinky promise?" She showed me her pinky and i entangled mine onto hers
"Pinky promise"
End of Flashback
'Yet i broke my promise. I betrayed her' i thought staring at the sky. I felt a liquid ran down my cheeks
"Hey, Jennie. Are you okay? Why are you crying?" Stranger worriedly asked shaking my body oh-so gently that made me snap out of my reverie
"I-i'm okay" i said and wiped the tears running on my cheeks
"What happened, why are you crying?" She asked and i shook my head
"Nothing, just remember some drama i've watched" i said. She stared at me for a moment before nodding and looking at the sky again
Silence envelop us, wind is blowing making a howling sound as trees and bushes rustle
"I'm a liar" i said out of the blue, i saw her look at me from my perephiral view but she didn't spoke. I guess she's letting me to continue
I heaved a sigh, i think i need someone to pour the weight on my chest, someone i can talk with
"Eight years ago, i have someone. Someone i possessed, someone i adore, someone special to me, someone that all i've got. Someone that stayed beside me when the world seems to be mad at me.." i paused as i felt my tears threatening to fall
"We met, no, i mean, she came to me two years before i made a promise, when everyone has turned their back from me. She didn't judge me for who i was. I was very thankful that time. She became my crying shoulder, she became my everything. She come every now and then just to play with me. She promised me she will never judge me, she promised me she'll never turn her back on me, she promised me she'll stay by my side. I was glad when she came, i can't ask for more" the tears escaped my eyes and i started to sob
"She promised me everything and there's nothing she missed. Never have ever she broke one. I asked her to stay and she never disappoint me. I asked a lot but she didn't complain and fulfill her promises. Until that day, she confessed her feelings to me. I was happy but part of me was scared. I came from a selfish family, i promised myself i won't be like any of my family but guess the blood has it all. I got scared of my reputation. Negative thoughts filled my mind and i pushed her away. She asked me to stay and i promised her that. She only had this one favor, it isn't even half of the promises she fulfilled yet i broke it" i choke with my tears and then i felt her arms around me
I let my body fall on her arms. I closed my eyes as if i was longing for the embrace
"When she came, i told myself i will protect her no matter what. I will be with her when she needs me just like when i needed someone. But i was so selfish.." i sobbed and i felt her body tremble
"Fate became cruel to her and her family, badluck have found it's way to them. Unfortune slowly but surely pass them. They had a hard time until that time her family's business got bankrupt" i said and cried more as i remember those days
"She got bullied, she got beaten, she got the worst, her mother died and instead of helping her, i chose to join those bastard who insults her. I wasn't there when she needed me the most, i wasn't there when the world despise her just like how it did to me years before that. I wasn't there when she needed someone to cry on the most. I wasn't there when she was having hard time" i stared at the sky, hoping the tears won't come out anymore
"One time, i saw her crying alone in the school's bathroom. Her clothes were a mess. She has a lot of bruises. I wanted to go there, i was dying to hug her but instead i did the opposite. I hurt her more than she already is. I was a total jerk!" I slightly yelled at myself
"I became her nightmare instead of becoming her sweet fantasy. She got scared of me, so much that everytime she saw me her eyes would mirror fear. I hurt her too much than i intended" i sobbed, while her gripped tighten
"I betrayed her" i mumbled and cried more. Shamelessly pouring my tears out but she stayed quiet, comforting me silently
"I want to revoke all of those bad things i've done. I want to bring back the time where we used to share the same underwears" i giggle a bit and her too
"Everytime i'd saw her, specially with bruises and sad eyes, i just want to ran to her and apologise. I just want her forgiveness, i missed her so much. It comes to the point where she avoids me" i wiped my tears but it was useless as another set of them streamed down my cheeks
"I felt hurt but it was my fault. Then i realised, i was just doing those bad deeds because i want her attention. I want her to look at me the same way she look at me lovingly the first time she saw me but because of my ego, shoving her off is the only way i've found. I was so selfish" i said and look down
"I beyond hurt when i saw her smiling with another guy" i said and leaned ny head on stranger's shoulder
"The same smile she gave me the first time we met. The same smile i've always want and dying to see after i pushed her. The same smile i want to own, she's giving it to the person. The person that isn't me" i added with a sob. I heard her whimpered and choke so i look up to her and saw her mask wet. She's crying with me
"I hate myself for that" i mumbled as i felt my eyes became heavy and i yawn
"I want to go back at the time where everything is okay" i whispered
"I want to go back at the time where i was still able to own her"
"I want to go back at the time where i'm still capable of calling her mine. The time where my marraige isn't set yet with the person i don't want" i lastly said and darkness swallowed me as i fell into a slumber
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Fanfiction· "Because of my damn reputation, i was forced to hurt and betray the most important person of my life" * "I wish i was capable of having her. I wish i was him... If only i was him. I shouldn't be hiding behind these masks, i shouldn't be someone th...
