Silence || Hitoshi Shinso X Aizawa's Daughter (OC)

Ch. 4 - Independent Study

In the elevator we were glued to each other again. He was so much taller than me, I was on the tips of my toes trying desperately to kiss him harder.

When the elevator door opened he guided me to his room. Within seconds I was pinned to the bed and his shirt was off. 

"Tell me if you want me to slow down." He told me as his shirt hit the ground. 

How can I tell him anything?

I grabbed his hands as they touched my bare skin under my sweater. 

What if I want him to stop? How do I tell him?

His expression softened. "Hey, why are you crying? Did I hurt you?"

I didn't even realize tears had stained my cheeks when he asked his question. How was I supposed to tell him why I was crying? 

I pushed away from him and pulled my knees up to my chest as I sat against the wall. I didn't know how to tell anyone anything. Let alone the boy in front of me.

Shinso got up and grabbed his shirt along with my phone. Gently he sat down in front of me and handed me the phone. "Can you type what's wrong? I want to fix it."

Me: I don't know how to tell you if I'm uncomfortable.

I handed him back my phone with the message on the screen. His lips tilted up in a small smile. "I didn't mean to make you feel like you had to speak. You can tap my arm, or smack me or anything. You can communicate with body language too, I'm not going to ignore your discomfort just because I don't get a verbal 'no'." He reached out to me and placed his hand delicately on my arm.

I looked down at my knees feeling better now. I held my hand out for my phone.

Me: Will you be mad if I change my mind? I think I'm not ready for this. 

This turned into a conversation where we passed my phone back and forth. "No, I won't be mad. Your comfort is important. It's okay to not be ready."

Me: Thank you.

"It's okay, losing your virginity can be scary, I don't want you to feel pressured."

I cocked an eyebrow at him. 

Me: I said nothing about being a virgin.

It was his turn to cock his eyebrow at me. "You're not? I thought that's why you were scared about communicating."

I smiled and shook my head. 

Me: no. I've had sex twice, so not a virgin :P lost it to Bakugo. Then I have one ex. Anyways, I just got scared about boundaries because I don't talk. That's been an issue in the past. 

Shinso ruffled his hair. "I thought you and Bakugo weren't a thing?"

Me: we're not. Never were. But we grew up together and well, we got curious, but it's a stupid story that i don't think Kaachan wants me to share.

"Understandable." He sighed. "Would it be weird if I asked who's the ex?"

Me: You Shindo. From my old school. Can I ask why you want to know?

"Just wondering if it was someone else on campus." He told me plainly. "Anyways, I'm sorry people have taken advantage of your silence before. I don't plan on doing that to anyone."

Instead of responding I offered him a smile, as I didn't know what else to say. I felt awkward.

"I think, all of our encounters meeting each other have been on the wrong foot." He blurted out.