eddies pov
I woke up to a empty bed
"buck" I say turning my head to look for him
"in here" a quiet voice says I stroll into the bathroom to see him leaning against the toilet seat on the floor
"how long you been here" I say rushing over and slamming myself to the floor
"I finished throwing up a while ago but I didnt have the energy to get up" he says looking down at his hands
"ok common lets get you back in bed" I say pulling him of the floor and putting all his weight on me
"I have work in a hour" I say sitting next to him once I placed him in bed
"good you need get away from this for a while" he says grinning
"Ill come round after my shift and you can tell me all about your fabulous day in the hospital with Maddie" I smile
" so breakfast" I say getting up
"don't move ill get it for you" I add running down the stairs and returning 10 mins later with pancakes
"oh Eddie I love pancakes but I can't eat that I feel sick" he mumbles
"come on please for me Bucky" I smile
"fine" he grumbles. I sat with him while he ate them all I also sat with him while he threw them all up. Sitting on the bathroom floor watching buck as he lays his head on the toilet seat I know. I know in this moment that this is were I want to be with him making him feel better. I want to hold him close in the night and kiss him when hes sad and go I want to fucking celebrate with him when he beats this cancer. I want to be with him all the time I don't ever want to leave him
"buck" I say abruptly he turns to me lifting his head of the toilet. I'm now thinking that this is not the best time but I've started now
"look I know this isn't the best time but I love you and its no its not because your sick ive loved you from the moment I saw you on my first day ... I love everything about you Evan. I love you" I say now kind of regretting it because what if I have just ruined my friendship with buck I panic
" but would you really want to be with someone who's sick like me" he mumbles before throwing up again
"buck of course. I choose to be here. to spend the night . to be with you because buck I love you with all my heart" I say as he falls into my arms
" I love you'd you from the moment I saw you" he mumbles into my chest
"good ... I'm going to put you back in bed" I say swiping him up and carrying him to bed I grab a bucket and place it next to him
"Maddie will be here in a hour and I have to get to work" I smile kissing him on the head
"see you tomorrow morning" he shouts in a weak voice as I leave
Once I arrive at the fire station I head into the locker room and get dressed before heading into the kitchen upstairs
"how's buck" bobby smiles
"his first 2 days of chemo have been rough bobby he's been throwing up a lot. I woke up and he was on the bathroom floor and its hurting to see him like this Yano" I mumble before realising I told them I stayed at his.
"you stayed at his" hen asks walking over grabbing a cup off coffee and handing it to me
"yeah criss is still at camp and he needs me by his side" I smile
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ill survive if I have you || buddie fanfic
Fanfictionwhen Evan Buckley a young firefighter finds out he has cancer he must do something he never liked to do, lean on his friends and family to get him through it. he leans on his best friend Eddie Diaz the most and friendship soon turns into love but wi...
