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I wiped my face for the 35th time this morning it was 6am and I was driving around for the second day crying
I thought I would be fine but I couldn't help but read kes messages he poured his heart out to me and even got angry at times but he was still respectful but I couldn't take it All in cause I was hurting
I thought staying at this hotel would relax me but I couldn't relax Tae sent me a picture of me and his room and it was a mess literally tae told me ke didn't even have the kids cause he didn't want them to see how empty he was feeling and he tell them what was going on
My baby's were fine thank god I'm just glad we were able to protect them from shit like this cause in our childhoods there wouldn't be no shielding done
I listened to his voicemails and they really were fucking with me cause he never spoke to me like that before his voice was super mellowed and calm but yet held so much pain
Just like when we first got with eachother I remember that dude fire the angriest person I ever met and for his voice to sound like that meant he was really hurting but this time it was someone on the other end hurting to Me
Every part of this human was something, someone , or a feeling that I wanted to hold on to for my life no matter how many times I wanted to leave him cause of this situation I can't
So much happened in these short years but it felt like we been together for 40 years I felt like I been with him my whole life if I didn't have him I would die
Omniscient Aria drove for hours crying and hurting she ended up parked in front of the house while just a few meters away ke was in his studio writing the most hurt lyrics he ever wrote before
They didn't make much sense cause his vision was blurry from all the weed he had smoked and how much Hennessy he downed in the last two days
This was the emptiest point of there life's right now and only they knew what was going on they probably seemed fine tae thought they just were playing around with eachother With all honesty but lil did he know they were not playing
Kes mind flooded with the thought that she was leaving or was already gone him hallucinating he wondered if she was gonna leave him and all the kids to cause they were even a part of him
The alcohol was mixing with his ied pills and his mind was racing he hated to medicate himself with alcohol but life was crashing down on his head like crazy
Ke had fucked up the room his man cave and who knew what room would be the next and was consuming him and the only person that could fix him was aria
Aria She slowly got out the car and walked to the door shaking as she unlocked it her keys fell as soon as she got the door open the house had a sunny darkness to it only thing heard was the same beat playing over and over from down the hallway
She locked the door back and walked down the hallway to the music she pushed the door open and seen ke on the studio couch laid out his eyes wide open and red
She bumped into a bottle and kes eyes flew to her automatically they stared at eachother for a long time maybe a hour maybe longer but it was a long time
She moved twords the table cleaning up the weed and the alcohol bottles she threw the bottles out while putting the weed back in the jars then placed them on the shelf
So you leave then come back and clean up,huh"
She turned looking at him and wiped her face quickly You need to learn what it's like to loose me you made this happen but it's my fault for even considering allowing you to get me back so easily" Why I gotta fight for you aria you know where my heart is and was when that shit went down" I do but you think drinking is gonna solve this shit drinking is what got you in this predicament"
Ion know what else to do you did the thing you said you'd never do my heart fucking breaking ma, ion know what the fucking I'm feeling but I'm feeling it son"his accent jumped out the more he spoke he leaned up looking at her while his elbows rested on his knees he was talking with his hands also What I gotta do to get my wife back cause I can't feel shit right now" I can't tell you you just gotta figure it out" I was gonna do that but you fucking left"he stood up making aria move back slowly she knew who her nigga was and how he got down so she moved Witt caution
You left me aria, and I deserve it I do but I was trying to fix it" Don't put the blame on me there are repercussions for yo fucking actions" You watched the tape" Ye-"
I was gonna burn it but you came home I ain't never mean no disrespect with bringing that In ya house ma I promise I didn't I just wanted to destroy it I ain't never mean to disrespect you, ma.....I....I can't get right without you" You don't think I know that ke but if you gonna get ya shit together this time do it without me then fix us if that works for you"
Ke nodded and crashed on the couch she rushed over to him and shook him and he was fine just passed out from all the shit in his system She lifted him the best she could and pulled and dragged him the rest of the way into the living room
She stopped took a water break and dragged him to the elevator that nobody really used and made a way to the guest bedrooms on the 2nd floor she pulled him in one and threw him on the bed and took his shoes off his jeans and his messy shirt she got him under the blanket and hugged onto his body
God please make this right I want my marriage to work I wann stay in love I wanna stay happy I wanna stay right for our kids for us.......just please god I'm begging you im on my last tear begging you"she cried Please I'll do whatever it takes"she whipped her face and stood up she kissed ke forehead and left
She cleaned up the mess he made and grabbed her phone leaving she locked the door and went back to her getaway
