Just Kinda Wanna Die ❤️

I 𝐿𝑜𝓋𝑒 and 𝐿𝑜𝓋𝑒𝒹

I love the feeling of a crisp autumn morning.
I loved collecting firewood at the break of day.

I love all my pretty little kitties.
I loved all my precious feline companions.

I love my animals, my pretty babies,
I loved my dog, more than I thought.

I love winter,
I loved winter because I like to feel the warmth of others.

I love my friends because they know me
I loved being secluded for 3 years, despite being lonely.

I love the way some people say they love me
I loved the way he thought he knew me.

I love the way some people are raised
I loved what some guy said that day

I love rangas, their pretty hair
I loved a boy, who pretended to care

I love the sound of trains in the distance
I loved them when I lived close, they remain a comfort;a reminisce

I love going to the movies
I loved going out often, before that thing happened

I love the cold and the way it seems quieter
I loved the summer until cold nights seemed nicer

I love the night time, the world illuminated by the moonlight
I loved the dark before I learned to hurt

I love my brother, though he does make me suffer
I loved my mother, though she never deserved it

I love my sister, though she can be annoying
I loved my sister, till she attempted to hurt me.

I love the sea, it brings warm memories
I loved swimming in the sea though now it seems frightening

I love music, to listen to it; to play
I loved playing instruments, until I was told I couldn't one day

I love to read and write, my given right
I loved to read books until that night

I love sex, though I'm not supposed to say
I loved the comfort of another's touch, to feel a sense of worth

I love to paint, though Im not very good
I loved to paint, until stress took my love away

I love the way some people tell me they know
I loved the way people told me to get over it, that I was putting on a show

I love to sleep, I could sleep all day
I loved to stay awake and adventure, until I realised the world wasnt worth my presence

I love the moon,
I loved looking at it with you.

I love,
I loved,

I love,
I lost.