Memory is a scary thing,
I spent my childhood avoiding you
You left,
And I'm still trying to figure life out,
My memories of after you left
Are better than before you did
But either way they're still hazy
I try not to think
This family isn't mine
I'm a guest
I'm still adjusting
to abandonment
I like talking,
being around adults
Scared to be left alone
I'm sorry for being annoying
But its monday and I'm 16,
I haven't seen you
For 6 months now
I can handle leaving the nest
Memory is a scary thing
I'm afraid to cry, to get sick
I hate being a burden
But I'm always so tired
I miss the stars I can't sleep
I cry silently
I want some freedom
But it's Thursday, I'm 17
I haven't seen you
It's been a year
I have school today, get up and ready
Memory is a scary thing
I'm scared of the deep dark
It lingers in my room
It reminds me often
Of how I'm alone
It brings nightmares
If i hide under the blanket
I feel safe
But not safe enough to fall back asleep
But it's Tuesday, I'm 18,
I haven't seen you
For 2 years now
I can sleep alone, rarely
Memory is a scary thing
I hear your footsteps
Coming up the hallway
I throw myself out of bed
I'm scared I'm scared I'm scared
I'm late for school
Please don't yell
It's Sunday, I'm 20,
I haven't seen you
For 4 years now
I finished school 2 years ago
Memory is a scary thing
Being called from my bedroom
I worry about the endless possibilities
Am I in trouble?
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
It's tuesday, I'm 22,
I haven't seen you
For 6 years now
My roommate says it's my turn to cook dinner
Memory is a scary thing
Avoiding the aftermath
YOU ARE READING
Just Kinda Wanna Die ❤️
PoetryPoems. This blew up over the past couple weeks so, thankyou 🥺👉👈❤️ I um, just use Wattpad to vent so I wasn't really expecting this thankyou all for your comments it means a lot to me
